Am I one of the few who has had no luck with doctors, hospitals or therapists? I've been suffering from anxiety disorders since I was a child, started getting treatment in my late teens but was always surprised that the whole lot of them seem to regard me as the proverbial elephant the blind men are trying to describe. One doctor gets so fixated on my thyroid imbalance that he tells me my symptoms will go away with thyroid treamtment. They don't, he sends me to a psychiatrist who talks to me for 10 minutes, very nice man, puts me on meds for 6 weeks that do nothing. He sends me to a cognitive therapist who listens but never comments other than politely agreeing or nodding knowledgeably (sp?). I go to another therapist who talks constantly about her patients. Meanwhile my thyroid is still off balance so I get sent to specialists for the symptoms such as uncontrollable vomiting and headache pain and fatigue. While in the hospital being treated with anti-vomiting drugs intravenously I wasn't aware they stopped my xanax and I was having withdrawal symptoms and am so anxious I'm crying uncontrollably. They call in the staff psychologist who listens to my anxiety complaints for a few minutes then says I'm having an anxiety attack and told me I'd calm down as soon as I got out of the hospital. Five days later a nurse realized that my xanax had been stopped and figures she should point that out to the doctor. I hope I dont sound angry, because I'm not, if anything, I feel very guilty that it is always my fault that I can't seem to get proper treatment because I have thyroid problems that have never responded to thyroid meds normally. Phew...that brings me to another question, how can I feel valuable and worthy when I'm such a hormonal mess? I read that I should have feelings of having value and worth, but I can't feel those things, I feel I have such difficult hormonal problems that I make it impossible for doctors to find a treatment for me. At least I have my xanax to take when I start hating myself for being such a mess. Thank God for that. I just wish I could muster some sense of self-esteem. I'm one of the few people I know who doesn't have even a shred of self-worth. I sometimes wonder if my total lack of self-esteem is so evident that doctors don't want to get involved...and then I really get stressed and anxious because I'm my own worst enemy. I couldn't work, my husband has insurance but I had so many medical procedures done, and saw so many doctors that I maxed out my credit cards with co-pays. Ok, sorry to rant on, thanks for being there.....