You're doing your best to stay one step ahead of your anxiety, keep up the good work! Often we never know why we have anxiety, we just do and it's very frustrating. I wish you all the best.
Mammo, i mourned hard for my father. I was ashamed to show my emotions. I was very concerned the wekk of his passing that I would develop anxiety during his funeral etc. but I didnt. I felt very weird during this time as you would expect.
As time went on, I was sorry about the loss but I felt like I accepted it. When the holidays rolled around, I could feel the lack of his presence and it was strange. I think subconscientously it caught up to me. Eventhough I don't want to go anywhere, i do. sometime cautiously. I have felt this way many times before and overcame it so eventhought I am aware of agoraphobia and worry about it, I dont give into it. If I have a really bad day and I dont feel like going soemwhere, I dont go and start over the next day.
Sagitaritus, I had a couple of big disputes with my wife around mid January. These disputes made me very angry and we argued alot. It was mainly me bringing on the disputes. It was sometime after these outbursts that I began to feel "different". Then Joe Paterno died, an idol of mine, and that week I had the panic attack in my sleep.
I am sure the arguments didnt help in this but the Paterno thing may have been something that reminded me of my Father. I don't know but this anxiety has come out of nowhere this time around.
Often we think we have dealt with the loss of a loved one when in reality we haven't.....we've just tucked it neatly away. When we do this, this event comes back in the form of anxiety and/or depression demanding to be dealt with. Losing your father is a big loss so make sure you have mourned his loss and haven't been pretending to be okay for those around you. Men often don't want to show emotion and feel they need to always appear strong, but sometimes this just isn't possible and it's unfair to do this to yourself. I have lost many loved ones and one thing that helps a lot is to journal your feelings and emotions on paper....even if you just toss them away. This has been proven to be very therapeutic as it serves as a form of release for us. Force yourself to go places or this could snowball and turn into Agoraphobia and you don't want this to happen. Anxiety can take control of our lives and we have to fight with all we have to keep our power! I'm truly sorry about your father.
It dose comp make sense...stress,anger,rush to everything,sadness...these all no gud for anxiety n as well as for our health cause in them we put pressure to out heart b brain
How it started a month ago?
There are long periods (think God) that I am anxiety free. At one point, I was anxiety free for 6 years. Stress definitly triggers the attacks.
My Father passed away a year ago. I thought I was accepting of it as part of the life cycle and moved on. But I had anxiety back in the Fall that lasted a month and about a month ago it started up again only a little more intense. The thing that puzzles me is tht I was exercsing everyday (jogged 50 mile total for the month of January) and I was eating right. I cut out coffee, soda and all junk food. I was feeling great and in a very good routine until this hit me a month ago.
could it be from the loss of my father? i also had some very minor marrital issues that angered me but I have since resolved. I know anger is a no no too.
Although I go to work everyday and to places I HAVE to go to, I get to the point when I am in this cycle that I am afraid to go anywhere. Its all in my head, I know it but the fear kicks in and make it tuff.
Can anyone relate?
Yes u r rite...I had so many occasions where I calmed my self and stop anxiety been coming to me n yes u r rite that I can make myself fear thinking of anythIng,,,n then my head feel pressured my ears rings I have this sunken feeling...but the point is we share Our problems here cz we kno there r millions n millions like us suffering n they kno how to reply this..rather if I write I had a panic attack n I broke the vicious circle then i'll just get appreciation whIch I dnt want cuz I hate being panic I want this to get out from my life my mind n my body
But I really understand what u meant...n it's a struggle everyday