my anxious life...

[myla7]

hey everyone my name is stacie i am 19 and for about 9 months i have had anxiety. i hate it soooo much it is the worst thing anyone can have if you dont have it you are so lucky. anyway back when it started i remember feeling really nauseus and lost my appetite and lost about 15 lbs. i thought something was wrong with me because obviously i had never felt that way before. one day i had the worst panic attack ever that i ended up in urgent care, just like most people do when they have a panic attack that seems like the end of the world. my chest was hurting so bad and i felt like i could not breathe and of course felt really nauseus. i was there for about 3 hours and they did so many heart tests on me and also did a chest x-ray and everything came back fine and the doctor just asked me if i had been going through any stress and i had and he said i just have anxiety. i was sooo shocked like what!!!?? just anxiety? so basically i felt like whatever was wrong with me was all in my head, and i was thinking there is no way because i never felt that way before. to this day i am still confused about it and i have been taking 15 mg of lexapro a day for about 7 months and i have good days but most of them are bad. and the way i feel is i fell nauseos SO MUCH! and i hate it. i also had an abdominal ultrasound and that was fine. i been to the gastrointerologist and they thought i might have a small ulcer and wanted to do an endoscopy on me and i freaked and said no. i really dont think i do have one but if my stomach hurts or anything gets worse i will do it. i think its just my anxiety. i hate it so much i feel like i am the only one who feels awful and nauseous all the time and its like everytime i try to do something about it, i get referred back to my anxiety. i had been going through a lot of stress because i was with my ex-boyfriend for almost three years and we recently broke up because i got so tired of him. seriously i dont know one person who is mad that i broke up with him everyone is so glad i did. but i gave everything i had to him he was my life. i felt like everyday i woke up, everyday i went to work, school, ate, breathed, everything was because i was with him my best friend i didn't care about anything and i had never cared for anyone as much as him. but he broke my heart with all the things he did behind my back and its like ever since then this happened to me. i want to be normal though i feel like i am but i have my days like today where i just dont feel good and it kills me. then i have my days where i do feel great and i think why cant i just feel this way everyday why does it always have to just come on any day it wants and haunt me and never go away. i am way to young to be going through this and i still have so much ahead of me that i dont know if i can do it. i can go on forever about this anxiety. thanks for reading my life lol hope to hear from someone, anyone. stacie

[myla7]

hey thanks guys for replying thats so awesome! lol but my symptoms are just mostly nausea and racing thoughts and uncomfortable in my chest. maybe could be side effects of the lexapro but i was feeling that way before i started taking it too so im not sure. :( i lost weight and i am a small girl as it is and everyday i think about how skinny i may look even though it is really not that bad and i feel like its impossible to put the weight back on that i lost. but i think i will eventually. ya i know breaking up with my boyfriend was the best thing to do and its so hard to face that for me though. cuz he was my best friend and stabbed me in the back. how do you cope xkarmax08??? all my family wants me to just go out and meet people and they dont understand how hard it is for me to have no communication with him whatsoever i even changed my phone #. i am glad that it is not worse and i hope to get over this anxiety issue but i am afraid it will be with me for life :( like i said racing thoughts.

[Jikan]

Namaste,

It sounds as if you have a good understanding of your body and how it reacts to certain situations.

Lexapro is not a very good medication for anxieety since it's more appropriate for depression.

I've suffered from anxiety and panic attacks for about 7 years and I also have my good days and by bad, even though I take medication and go to counseling.

As far as your boyfriend is concerned, it's probably better that he is out of the picture right now since you have to concentrate on yourself.  I know this may be hard, but it is the best thing to do.

I wish you the best of luck.

Michael

[XKARMAX08]

Wow hunny, you sound like me 5 years ago. I still have anxiety and depression.
As far as the boyfriend things goes, I was with mine for 6 years and a lot of my stress and anxiety came from him.
If there is anything that you need to talk about, I am here. I will tell you how I cope.
Its always good to understand that there are people out there that feel the same way that you do.

[yatta07]

Hi Stacie,
I know exactly how u feel...I too suffer from anxiety due to excessive stress. I've been suffering now for just 3 months but it feels like eternity. It has got a lot better and believe it or not, I'm going through without meds. I do have a psychotherepist I'm seeing once a week and so far it's been just "ok". I have my good days and bad ones as well, I ask myself the same ques. as u as yourself, "why can't I be my normal self again"? I try to keep faith and that attitude is what mainly keeps me going, however on the days I'm really bad off, I just feel like giving up! I keep trying to seek different ways out of this but somehow, always run into a dead in. In the back of my mind, I think I'll be like this forever but I know it I don't want to, I can't let those kind of thoughts consume me. We have to just be strong, anxiety is such a horrible thing, but it can be much worse! Try to remember that when the spells come on...That's what I do! Please write me anytime, I'm here for u and I understand completely....Kenyatta :)

p.s. what are some of your symptoms, what bother's u the most about anxiety?