I've been having epileptic seizures for 12yrs; however, in 2008 I had one while driving (I was alone & hit a ditch--no one else was hurt). I broke my ribs (all totaled with multiple fractions included), my neck, my back, but most importantly both upper arms required rods (nerve damage to left wrist & a plate in lower right arm). Both lungs punctured, partical liver removed (fun fact, it regenerates), spline, gallbladder... The works. So I was told to see about 5 specialists, but after all that time with doctors I was reluctant & skeptical. Before my disability hearing I saw a bunch of doctors; most were idiots--one argued that Klonopin doesn't treat seizures, I said check WebMD & he actually did, smh. So I've been seeing this one doctor for everything; including my panic attacks that generally send me into seizures. He reluctantly took me on & at 1st I was on Klonopin, methadone, Norco, & he gave me a few Xanax for rough days... Then, I was assaulted, ended up hospitalized with a broken jaw, & my doctor switched me to just the Xanax no more klonopin--meant to be temporary. Also, I had surgery to remove the rods (didn't work), my pain was unbearable and Norco became Vicodin. After a year on the Xanax I asked about switching, but he said he's never seen a patient do so well on this combination & I can't gradually come off Xanax with klonopin it's one or the other--so I stayed. Now with all these new laws, my doctor wants to drop me & I've got a month to find a new one!!! I can't think of any doctor that would take me on, with my medical history & the meds I've been on; however, without Xanax I will have seizures & without methadone I'll wish I was dead (and since my pains been increasing I cannot imagine not having them as a crutch)... I'm lost, I don't know if I should look to private practice, internal medicine, or pain management... Even if I wanted to see all the different specialists I can't afford it! I'm on medicare & health springs, but its not enough... Where do I go from here? How is it okay for a doctor to put me on all of this and then drop me with a letter???