Hypochondria ruining my life.

[wlylie]

8-9 months ago I had a sexual encounter with someone I don't know at all, unprotected.  Sense the very next day after the event I have been in a state of constant anxiety.  I feel that feeling you get in your stomach when you are extremely panicked or worried all the time with no periods of calm.  I have not had any real symptoms and have been tested four times, the last being 5 months after the encounter and all have been negative with my doctor assuring me that I am fine.  I still can't get over it.  Mentally I know I don't have an STD, but physically I am as worried and anxious as ever about EVERYTHING.  It's almost crippling.  I am starting to feel as if the only emotion I have is panic.  I get no enjoyment out of anything, and it almost feels like when I do enjoy something, the feeling of enjoyment is replaced with the feeling of panic... like all my emotions translate into a feeling of panic instead of happiness, sadness, or whatever they would normally translate too.

I don't want to see a psychiatrist or w/e about it and be medicated as I fear addiction.  Has anyone else been through something like this?  How do I work through it?  I have recently developed a relationship with a girl that I really like, but I can't pursue the relationship further because of this anxiety.  My grades are suffering, I'm not eating well, and I feel crappy all the time.  I still act normal and laugh and smile, but I haven't been genuinely happy in a long while.

Please help.

[potato4201]

im no doctor but if you read my post "do i have anxiety" i am going through physical symptoms right now according to my doc, and people around me.i never realized how bad i am till i thought about it,if you believe that when you think of something, more than likely it wont happen like i do.just becuz you even asked that question i think it reduces the risk. i think if someone pointed that out to me months ago i wouldnt of slipped as bad as i did.so i think you can turn yourself around if you try man.mind over matter.the mind is smarter than you(sound dumb.

[wlylie]

can prolonged feelings of panic and frequent panic attacks lead to real health problems?

[potato4201]

i think your missin a word on that comment thats throwin me off^.help me out.anyway dont ***** yourself around like ive learned not to do.some people only look out for their own interests but if they look out for YOUR interests they wouldnt do that to you.so pay VERY CLOSE attention to this new girl.keyword :trust.if youve been checked and you got the documentation to show for it and havent slept with others,have at it man......its a phase and if you let it eat you, it WILL!.keep your head up and hope all works out for ya.
p.s
when it comes to women,worry about them choking you in your sleep,not giving you herpes......lol

take care

[wlylie]

Yea, I did talk to people who all told me to chill.  I have some friends who go around like man ****** having sex with anything that moves without a care in the world.  They've been tested and are clean... and they move on.

I can't seem too is the problem.  Rationally, I know I'm most likely fine.  I can't work through it.

[potato4201]

they say a man thinks with his penis and that is so true. i remember i had slept with a girl on a drunken night one time who everyone said had an std(gossip). even while it was happening the thoughts are in my head, for months i was scared out of my mind thinkin i was gonna wake up with a 4 foot rash or something stupid.nothing happened though.4 years later im fine. to me there are two people in all of us(not bipolar),the ones that laugh on the outside,and the one that worries on the in.the world fills our head with "bad" knowledge and guess what that knowledge ends up being the voice in your head to tell you not to do things.example: you hear "apples cause cancer",at first you say yeah right.then 2 months later someone says "i have cancer".and you jump up saying"ITS THOSE DAMN APPLES".i prolly made absolutly no sence and could be wrong.im a  very conscience laden person.if your that concerned about anything ask at least 5 people,and you will get a rational explanation. sometimes the brain protects the mouth,and sometimes the mouth protects the brain