i also start to feel as im in a dream and unreal... its freaks me out
Oh My God im glad i ran across you........Its anxiety,its part of what i have,im going through derealization,which means you feel like your in a dream......like your high 24/7,and with derealization comes anxiety,i didnt know what was wrong with me either...even thought about suicide cause i felt so bad,used to i never wanted to come home,loved chillin with my friends now that i got like this i feel like i cant even leave town because ill start to get anxiety,then light headed,and eventually i will feel sick to my stomach...almost like homesick.I cut grass for a little bit of money on the side and now when i start working i feel sick,cant really explain it,just BAD feeling,like im about to die for some reason,never went to hospital though because i dont like doctors,but believe me i know how your feeling,mine started last month OUT OF KNOWWHERE. I thought i was seriously sick like i was gonna die,it scared the mess out of me. If you have any questions just ask.
sorry i posted my commet two times,it said the first one didnt go trough,but obviously it did
Yea it started happening when i was like 12,and just now comes back,its weird,but i thought maybe i had a brain tumor,you know trying all possibilities but i found out it was the derealization,you dont even understand how much relief it was,i thought i was going crazy.
thanks for responding, but yeah i feels like your high or in a dream. detached from reality... but my biggest fear is leaving my house. because i feel like the anxiety is gunna come back. and at home i feel safe.... and the other night i woke up from it.. and it was really bad. i was short of breath and my heart was racing.......... i dont feel like myself anymore. i just feel as if whats the point of doing anything..... i think i over think too. and it makes my anxiety realllllyyy bad...... im just trying to find a way to over come all of this...... im tired of living like this... day to day... =[
The first maybe month and a half after I had my first panic attack and was diagnosed with GAD was horrible. I thought I was going crazy, I had the derealization where nothing felt right, like I was on the outside looking in.....I remember telling my mom that it was like I was trying to be in the present but I just couldn't, I didn't feel like myself, I cried all the time and never wanted to leave my house. I had scary thoughts of hurting myself or others and I felt like I was internally shaking 24/7. It made sleeping almost impossible and I thought I would never, ever be normal again.
It does get better though, I promise. It took me a while to get the right meds, but eventually that along with cognitive behavioral therapy helped me tremendously. I also have to thank my mom because she FORCED me to get out of the house. She forced me to go back to work, to go out with friends, even though I fought with her like hell over it. I didn't want to go anywhere or see anyone, but living like that will only cause more problems. It makes it that much harder to get out and live normally again down the road.
The first time I went to a movie theater I almost had a panic attack, but I thought how embarassing that would be and I was somehow able to stop it just with abdominal breathing.
What kind of things are you doing to treat your anxiety? I hope things are getting better for you, I'm glad you found this forum because I know it's incredibly reassuring to realize you're not alone in what you're feeling.
thanks for the reply. and it sounds like i have exactly what you do. the anxiety , panic attacks. and cant seem to leave my house for anythinggg... but i do take the lowest dose of xanax, just once in awhile. when i feel a panic attack coming on. dosent help that much tho. i dont have an attack but i still do get the anxiety pretty bad. i dont feel like myself anymore. and i feel as if i never will. somedays will be alrightttt, but other than im tired of dealing with it. i feel better when im sleeping than i do awake..... and i cant sleep at night. ill be up all night and have to sleep during the day........ any suggestions on how i can go back to my normal self. and get out my house.........? thanks...
I still have issues sleeping at night, I finally had to go on amitriptyline to help me sleep. It's an antidepressant, but I take a small dose of it off label for sleeping. It's not addictive like ambien or things like that, and it has definitely helped me fall asleep. I still wake up a few times a night, but it's much better then it was before.
I really had to force myself to go out. It started with simple things like going to the gas station or to the grocery store, and everytime I did it and made it through I would tell myself that it was no longer something I needed to worry about. I also told a select few friends what was going on with me, and I started going places with them. When I felt anxious or felt an attack coming on, I could tell them and they would know that we needed to leave.
It took a while, but I'm glad I made myself go out. Last week I drove by myself to a work conference about 5 hours away from where I live, and I stayed alone in a hotel room for a week. It's definitely not something I thought I'd ever be able to do again, and I had a mini breakdown the day before I left but I did it and I feel so much better.
I'm on fluoxetine which is an antidepressant, and I'm also on the smallest dose of ativan that I take only when I need it. Really the biggest help for me was finding a therapist to talk to, it's a weird thing to start doing, I felt like a crazy person, but it has actually helped me the most I think because she taught me how to change my thinking patterns, and how to calm myself down if I feel anxious. I also have a really awesome family and good friends that know what I'm going through and they help me out when they can.
I still have bad days, sometimes bad weeks, but it is so much better then it was. Just remember that the mind is a really powerful thing, try not to overthink things. Try to do whatever it is you use to do before all this happened, every little thing you can do that was part of your "normal" life beforehand is one giant move in the right direction.
thank you so much. im really gunna try to start getting out of the house.....
i really hope i can heal with all these problems.
its controling my life. and i dont want it to control it any longer.