I am falling to pieces! God help me!

[alvaa]

Right now I am sobbing like a baby. My 7 year old daughter just saw me and it makes her sad. She is not suppose to see me like this. I shook to pieces today. I was nauseated all day. I couldn't think straight. I cannot see anything good and it is tearing me up. I am a useless person right now.

[alvaa]

Yesterday was awful. Today is pretty bad. My stomach feels like it's on fire and I am hurting all over. I really really don't want to keep my daughter at her mom's house. I think that is adding about 50% more to my already anxious self. I am dreading it more than anything.

[jul04]

Please don't feel guilty for what you are going through.  Anxiety is awful.  As hard as it is I do agree that you need to look at all the blessings in your life and that will hopefully help get you through the hard times.

I think that you might want to consider keeping a journal.  It really does help to get some of those emotions out.  

It is O.K. to focus on yourself...The only way you are going to get better is to focus on yourself.  You are not a horrible parent because you have anxiety.  You can get better, you just have to find a treatment plan that works for you.  Are you seeing a therapist?  If not you might want to consider seeing one.

I hope you feel better soon.....Smile.....

[edgyboy]

If I remember correctly, you have alot going on in your life at the moment that all began in 1996, correct?

Take one day at a time to pull things together. It can't happen overnight. Please don't feel guilty about not paying attention to your daughter while you are going through this.

I use to feel the same way but you can't help it. When I am in the midst of anxiety, all my thoughts are on ME! Its something you can't help because YOU affect them and want to be well. Right now it sounds like you are overwhelmed with everything.

[alvaa]

Tooth? I am not sure if this came from me posting something on here. I did have a sinus infection that gave me a heck of a toothache. It is totally gone.

My daughter is asleep now. She is okay! I just love her so much but always feel like a $#!tty dad and I don't know why. I guess it is because when I begin having a panic attack, I have to ignore her and sort of put her into second place, which I don't want to do. My exwife and her husband are going through a divorce which is putting a strain on me. She and I get along very much. She has asked me of a big favor. I normally keep my daughter Thursday night and Friday night. She now wants me to keep her here at my house MTW, and then at HER house TF???? I said we would give it a try but I don't know about this.

[Cntbreal]

Hey hun.

I totally get how you feel I have a4 year old whom caught me the same way one day actually it was more then once. And he is very smart and the questions he asked me and the way he responded was very sad for me.

But feeling down and useless is not the way to go to feeling better and fighting thru this. I encourage you to start thinking good thoughts and start trying to realize what is good in your life and looking at your 7 year old and start seeing the blessings and gifts in side of your child. O say this because ur helps me when I start feeling like that again..

Your are going to be ok and life its waiting for you to enjoy it..

Love and rockets hun I'm so sorry for you feeling this way.. Hope tooth get better soon.