What type of help do I need? Bedwetting?

[Chellsie_t]

I'm 15 years old and Ive been having a complicated issue for 2 years now. I don't know how to confess to my mother or if I should keep this to myself. it started when I kept getting this strange feeling inside me and I was feeling a lot of stress. Too make a long story short eventually I relized that I was curious what it would be like to have an accident. One night when I felt that I could get away with it I wet my bed on purpose. of course I could not get to sleep in a wet bed so I stayed up the whole night.  

I did this twice and than I stopped for like two years. Now I'm back into it again when my mother goes out or when I feel like I have a chance at getting away with it I decide to pee myself. Sometimes I will wet my pants & other times I bedwet. All the help I find online is about stopping accidents! There is no HELP about stopping something that is on purpose. I dont even know if I want to stop. But my mother knows I am having accdents because after about the ninth time wetting my bed I got caught before I could clean up after myself and hide it. I don't want to wear diapers and I'm not to happy about having a plastic sheet on my bed either. I was really embaressed and hated getting caught but now I can do it without ruining my bed anymore. But it's still a secret my mom does not know I'm still wetting with the plastic protection on my bed. Since my bed is protected though I am doing it more often now. I like it but I also hate it.

Sorry I think it may have to do with stress but at the same time it makes me feel excited! I should be more concerned with school and dating boys not this but I can't help what I enjoy doing. I still don't know why I was curious about doing this the very first time? its not normal to be curious about stuff like this.

[essdipity]

Hi, Chellsie. I think it would be a good idea to ask your mom to take you to your doctor, who is probably a pediatrician. She should agree to that because she knows you have a problem, even though she has it wrong as to what the problem actually is.

During the appointment, ask to speak to the doctor alone if mom is there the whole time. Then tell the doctor everything you've said here. You should get some good advice on what to do next. You can ask the doc not to give any details to your mother at this point, but if things stay the same or get worse I think she'll have to be told. You could be referred for counseling, and that would be a positive thing. Good luck with this.

[Chellsie_t]

So I don't know how to stop? Or why I like it in the first place. For now my mother thinks I'm having accidents because who would do this on purpose? Besides me! The last thing I want is to be treated like a baby but I guess I'm not acting like an adult.