Suicide or not?

[moonlight22]

Is there anything wrong with thinking about harming yourself?  Sometimes I think of ways to end my life.  If I am on my way to work, as the train approches, I wonder, how much would it hurt? would I survive? would I want to survive?  I have thought about overdoseing, rat poision, and slitting my wrist.  I don't think I have the courage to do anything.  I don't really feel depressed, although I think I might have been at some time recently.  Sometimes I wish I would not wake in the morning.  Even when my moods are normal I get these thoughts.  Should I seek help.  By the way, I feel normal today, but I have thought about it.
Thanks

[Julie359]

well, you have tried without the med's for a whole year now and things haven't got any better only worse for you  so why don't you let her help you and let her give you some medication.....She offered all that time ago.  The reason she proberly didn't follow up is cause she was waiting for you to make the decision and contact her.  So, you see you have some help available right on ur doorstep.

Just to clarify my GP (everyday doc) was the one who put me on Paxil (paroxatine) and i was happy and stable and didn't need to go into the sepecialist department.  So, it can be done.  However personally i would recommend therapy as well as medication, proberly the most sensible route, as the med's lift the depression and the therapy help you to come to terms with all the cra* that caused the depression.

Good-luck and go make that appointment with her.....x

[Jaquta]

In New Zealand accessing the CAMH services is free.
You could try approaching your doctor again or phone the CAMH yourself and ask what is available.

If you ask about the eating on the emotional eating expert forum the doctor may be able to offer you some insights.  He is also a psychiatrist (in the States).  I think he offers most people good, sound advice.  You might like to try that as another option.

[moonlight22]

I don't have coverage for the help I need.  I have been to my doctor once before and told her how I felt.  She said before she gets me professional help she wants to try and help me herself.  She recommended meds, I said I want to try without them first.  This was mroe than a year ago, she has never followed up on this.  she is hard to work with.  I would rather try another method.  I live in Toronto, Canada, for those of you who might know, does CAMH offer any inexpensive help?

[ILADVOCATE]

You could call your local NAMI hotline or other mental health referral line for a list of local walk in clinics. If you want to know about insurance options speak to your local independent living center:
http://www.ilru.org/html/publications/directory/index.html

[mommy52]

Don't know regulations where you are  regarding help for mental health. Here we have ones  that are based on income. Even if you are working with no insurance, it's on sliding scale. Whatever you do, please see someone.

[Julie359]

Do u not have insurance? I'm taking it you don't live in the U.K.  Can't you go along to ur everyday doctor and ask for advice?  Personally i would go along to him/her and tell exactly what is going on in your thoughts, the doc will then see how much you need to be supported and i think he/she will organise something for you.....they can't leave you like this.  But in doing this you need to be very truthful and not hold back.  I do hope this has been of some help.... I don't really fully understand about the insurance poilcies in other countries asi come from the UK and if ur ill in any way shape or form you just walk into a clinic or go doc's...... u don't have to worry about money, sorry i know that don't help... Good-luck ok and keep us posted!!