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Fear of HIV or just anxiety for it?
Can anyone please help me, I cannot go on with this stress any longer.
About 3 months ago I performed unprotected oral sex on a female sex worker in massage parlor in China. Immediately after I had a white tongue and severe fear to have contracted HIV. Guilt and anxiety plus the additional stress at work wore me out almost immediately not able to function normally. I had to keep appearances with my family at home. Also almost immediately I got painful knee joints, something I already had before. On top of that I started to develop sore and painful muscles almost everywhere (not sure when that started, I think 3 week or so), mostly legs and arms. I thought to feel lymph nodes in legs and feet were swollen, but not sure. No neck, throat or groin nodes swollen, only very painful spots just above collar bones, deep inside. My elbow tendons (I hope not lymph nodes) were aching. I had no fever and the sore throat I already have for a long time seems to get a little worse which I bravely sprayed with disinfectant spray and gargling salt water. I had my throat checked by ENT, nothing special to see, antibiotics she gave me anyway did not help at all. I kept ongoing, relating all to stress. Worried sick. I went to (normal) massage to get my muscle pains treated. After second time, due to deep muscle massage (I bravely assume) I developed a burning skin sensation in both my inner thighs (is this same as rash?). Inner thigh muscle was very sore as well.
Now muscles are better but I still feel the pain and I think the inner thigh lymph nodes are still swollen (week 12). I never had a fever or a rash, but looking at the intense muscle pains I got, I am almost sure I got the virus. Also I developed some sores on tip of my tongue and my abdomen hurts now as well. Living in a country where testing positive means out, I can only test in a week when I am back home.
Can anyone tell me: Did I have ars symptoms or is it all between the ears and pure anxiety? Please help me to survive one more week. Thanks.
About 3 months ago I performed unprotected oral sex on a female sex worker in massage parlor in China. Immediately after I had a white tongue and severe fear to have contracted HIV. Guilt and anxiety plus the additional stress at work wore me out almost immediately not able to function normally. I had to keep appearances with my family at home. Also almost immediately I got painful knee joints, something I already had before. On top of that I started to develop sore and painful muscles almost everywhere (not sure when that started, I think 3 week or so), mostly legs and arms. I thought to feel lymph nodes in legs and feet were swollen, but not sure. No neck, throat or groin nodes swollen, only very painful spots just above collar bones, deep inside. My elbow tendons (I hope not lymph nodes) were aching. I had no fever and the sore throat I already have for a long time seems to get a little worse which I bravely sprayed with disinfectant spray and gargling salt water. I had my throat checked by ENT, nothing special to see, antibiotics she gave me anyway did not help at all. I kept ongoing, relating all to stress. Worried sick. I went to (normal) massage to get my muscle pains treated. After second time, due to deep muscle massage (I bravely assume) I developed a burning skin sensation in both my inner thighs (is this same as rash?). Inner thigh muscle was very sore as well.
Now muscles are better but I still feel the pain and I think the inner thigh lymph nodes are still swollen (week 12). I never had a fever or a rash, but looking at the intense muscle pains I got, I am almost sure I got the virus. Also I developed some sores on tip of my tongue and my abdomen hurts now as well. Living in a country where testing positive means out, I can only test in a week when I am back home.
Can anyone tell me: Did I have ars symptoms or is it all between the ears and pure anxiety? Please help me to survive one more week. Thanks.
Hi... If your only exposure was cunnilingus, you have nothing to fear in regards to HIV... You can't catch HIV that way.
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Thanks ! Can anxiety /guilt cause all that stuff ? Still wonder why I had all these sore points in leg and arms.
I will do test next weekend, I will let you know outcome. Thanks !
I will do test next weekend, I will let you know outcome. Thanks !
By the way, she was sitting on me and licking was quite intensive. Could there be too much vaginal fluids or also I do not know if there was menstrual blood as well .....
The mind is a very powerful thing bro... Anxiety can make our fears manifest in scary ways...
HIV is transmitted within the body.. Cunnilingus doesn't cater to that... The virus would be exposed to air and saliva.. It starts to breakdown almost immediately...
You dont need to test for HiV.Testing is not warranted in your situation but if you plan to go ahead with it, its your call... Perhaps by looking at a negative result (which I'm sure you'll be) your pains and aches might go away..
Regards...
HIV is transmitted within the body.. Cunnilingus doesn't cater to that... The virus would be exposed to air and saliva.. It starts to breakdown almost immediately...
You dont need to test for HiV.Testing is not warranted in your situation but if you plan to go ahead with it, its your call... Perhaps by looking at a negative result (which I'm sure you'll be) your pains and aches might go away..
Regards...
Thanks a lot !
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