Worrying about HIV a lot

[junoon]

I started seeing my boyfriend, and had protected sex (and he gave me oral) after one month. After about a week I was diagnosed with GHSV-1. They did a NAAT swab test.

My genital rash looked more like foliculitus (I didn't have blisters and it wasn't painful). But had all the other symptoms of a in initial OB.

At the same time as my OB I had some of these pimples on my legs, and they have been recurring ever since. The Drs say it looks like folliculitus and it is unrelated. But every time I get a new pimple whitehead (they are tiny) I also get a fever. It is like having an outbreak all the time. My fever is kind of always there.

What is really killing me right now is that when I tell my GP about the constant fever, she starts asking me if I have swollen lymph nodes and diarrhea, as if she is ready to diagnose me with another STD, asking me to test of HIV etc. And i have a HUGE phobia of HIV and I believe that's why I am so anxious lately.

But everything started the day after PROTECTED sex, we only had protected sex and unprotected oral.  my parter tested negative for HIV after I got him to test, and I had a negative PCR DNA after 2-3 weeks which is meant to be 95% accurate. 

I'm doing another test now, and having serious anxiety about it.

It's hard to eat/sleep/go to work. I just keep doing one STD test after the other, and I keep thinking about HIV and googling it, just keep googling symptoms, thinking if it was this easy to get Herpes I could easily have worst things..

I'm so terrified.

[BeStrong_]

Hello,
Oral sex is not considered as a risk of HIV transmission.
HIV can be transmitted via unprotected vaginal or/and anal penetration, sharing IV works in drugs and from mother to child
Take care