I'm going to create a website for other worried wells like myself... I've photo-documented all my "symptoms". The rash, BAD ulcer and thrush... Swollen lymph nodes...
Its amazing how powerful the mind is. I seriously manifested every symptom with severity. I was dead sure I had it.
lolol...your post was awesome!!!!! i loved it..."i need counseling".
wow. The pcr test was negative. I need counseling. Thanks for all your help guys.
Thanks for your guys' support. I'm driving my family and friends crazy as it is and they are so sure I don't have it. My parents think I just picked up a bad parasite in Thailand, which I'm sure is way more likely. It ***** so bad waiting for the results to figure out what is wrong with me :(
There is no controversy at all about receptive oral sex. There has never been a documented case of anyone contracting HIV by receiving a blowjob.
ok ok ok. You guys are probably right! There is actually a lot of contoversy among HIV specialists regarding risk from receptive oral sex. I guess there's not much I can do but chill out and wait. Thanks for all of your
guys' advice.
I hate to see that you've convinced yourself that you've been infected. Your test will be negative...I'd bet on it. You had NO risk.
How many times does it take to get through to you that you did not have a risk? Don't even bother to answer it.
what is my risk? ? If she was in the window period she would be highly contagious... Saliva and her swollen tonsils... Remember this is deep oral insertive.
Listen, i am going thru the "flu" hardcore right now. The worst diarreah and nausea you can imagine. The only thing that stops my whole body from aching is sleep. When I wake up, everytime it feels like I lost feeling in my forearms and hands... And no its not like they fell asleep. I'm not anxious anymore... Just really really sick. And I WILL let u know the pcr results, we'll see.
stop with the drama! go to the health pages at the top right of the page. read all about anxiety and how it can cause symptoms. you have to have a risk BEFORE you can be infected with hiv...no ifs, ands, or buts about it!!!!!
I have to disagree with you. Even if you were exposed to an HIV+ individual, it doesn't mean automatic infection. Get tested but I'm sure your test results will be negative if all you did was suck.
hey I just thought I might fill u in on my situation. I'm home in the states, got a pcr done and am waiting on the results. I've developed a tongue ulcer half the size of my tongue, have oral thrush, bad and long lasting diarrhea, tingling hands, numb toes, severe cough, sinusitis, and depression. I'll let u know how the test goes, but I'm pretty sure you are giving false information. The risk from a blowjob, from a seroconverter, is very high.
I'm starting to make peace with myself , and accepting my fate.
Wish me luck.
thanks for the reassurance
You can blieve anything you want but the fact is you didnt have a risk and it wouldn't have mattered if she was HIV positive or not.
She called and said she was not, but then I get a text asking for 4000 baht, because she needs money for a room. ***** houses provide living and only kick u out if u test pos.
So I'm freaking the hell out. I stopped PEP 3 days ago and the rash that looks like ars rash ( supposedly from sustiva) has not gone away. More importantly my lymph nodes in my neck are swollen, so much so its difficult to swallow.
I am going to go see a doc in Bangkok today. Now I'm really scared. If had the virus it most likely would surge after stopping arvs, causing the lymph node swelling.
I want to reinterate: I believe my risk of exposeure was high because i got deep oral from a (Thai) prostitute who had severe sore throat, dry cough, and fever. She also told me that because she is sick she sleeps all day.
so what happened? was she infected?
it really doesnt matter where you get tested nowadays.. in the states...bangkok .. phillipines.. almost all the hiv testing done throughout the world are of acceptable standards.. so dont worry too much about the standard of testing in Bangkok..
what really should matter is the timing of your test.. i know how anxious you are.. been through it .. but only a blood test at 3 mnths mark will help calm your anxiety.. all your testing at present are way too early to give you a peace of mind...
and Teak is right.. she can look like a dying zombie and still you CANT tell wether she has HIV..only through blood test can you tell.. and symptoms means absolutely NOTHING..
It's no concern to you if she is negative or positive. You said that you had protected sex. You don't contract HIV from protected sex.
No matter how good you think you are, you cannot look at someone and know they have HIV and again you didn't have a risk.
Thanks for your comment. I guess I worry because it appeared to me that she was going through acute HIV... during which times viral load concentrations in the blood can reach 100,000 copies/ml. The blood exposure to my crotch area was signficant. Moreover, she had a sore throat at the time of the unprotected (deep) **. I know the risk is lower than I think, but I am still paranoid. One side effect of sustiva/stocrin is paranoia. No joke.
Good news is... she's has a doctors appointment in 15 minutes. During this time they will reveal to her the results of the HIV RNA Assay (NAT Test). Supposedly this test can detect if she had it one week prior to the test. I have heard of there being high false positive rates with similiar tests (PCR DNA), but ... God I hope it is negative. This would put my exposure risk at almost non-existant. I am pretty sure I will continue with medication regardless, at least until I can go into another BK hospital to check to see if it's a good idea to stop medication.
I am hella worried though because at 14 day mark (2 days ago) I got bad diarrhea, a weird hot flash, and a weird blotchy red palpation on my chest. It all went away by then next day though (although I am still experiencing slight diarrhea). Hopefully, and I think it is, a combination of the Thai food, constant rain, and constant worry.
Anyway. To all you other worrying people out there... I have taken an upper level BIO class on HIV in college and most of you are completely accessing your level of risk WRONG. If you live in the states, you likelyhood of contracting HIV from a one time, unprotected vaginal intercourse is almost non-existant. Much of HIV in the US is concentrated among IV drug users, sex workers, (and quite unfortunately...) male homosexuals. Always wrap your tool and discuss STD testing with your partners.
You should never have been given PEP, you didn't have a risk. Blowjob, no risk, protected vaginal sex no risk.