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phobia of testing for hiv
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Ok to get to it have developed a fear to test for hiv. (Maybe subconsciously I know I have it) Im having really bad anxiety about testing, its all I think and thus fear has been going on for a year. I was even afraid to go to the dentist bc I thought he might tell me I have HIV. I know I need to get tested that why Im posting my experience on this forum, I just need an outlet for my fear. About a year ago I had unprotected sex with my ex-boyfriend. I was tested and I asked him if he was tested. He mentioned that since he was on a professional track team stds testing was required (don't know how truthful that is) Well about 4 months after dating I got sick for like 3 days when I traveled out of state (This could be related to my flight or SAR, I don't know) also too mention when we broke up my knees were aching for a month and I had slight nausea for 4 months, now this could be related to the break up bc I was heart broken and this is when my fear started bc I didn't want anymore pain. 6 months after the break I started having night sweat, when im stressed I usually get night sweats and I was so stressed thinking about AIDS, my ex and my life (I would cry constantly and sleep for 15 hrs bc I felt it was no point of getting up.) Now for this pass yearhaving night sweats and they usually coincide with me feeling anxious and depressed. Sometimes I have these feelings of "shock" or a "sinking" feeling in my chest and a nurse practitioner said I was having a mild panic attack (IDK). Currently I've been feeling anxiety again and im having night sweats, I wonder if this AIDS. I talked to my ex again about stds and he promised me he was clean. We're still in contact with each other so we talk about it, but I get the feeling he's not telling to whole truth. Sometimes the top of my hands itch especially if i feel depressed. I can't determine if my lymph nodes are swallon bc I feel both my lymphs on my neck, there tiny little bubbles (I don't think I should be able to feel anything...idk) but my neck has always felt like that. Can someone describe a swollen lymph node? Should I not be able to feel anything? Well anyways I dont know if my night sweats are related to anxiety and depression or AIDS. I really want to get tested but the idea a positive test makes me sick to my stomach. My ex thinks im crazy, but I bet he was tested and had partners after being tested. I had a cold sore in December, I guess that's again another sign. Ive been having right side back pain off on for teo months. I went to the doctor and him a gonorrhea syphilis and chlamydiain all test results were negative. I stiil need to a HIV test and terrified bc this night sweats. Please some advice and what's your opinion on the night sweat situation (no other symptoms).
Ok to get to it have developed a fear to test for hiv. (Maybe subconsciously I know I have it) Im having really bad anxiety about testing, its all I think and thus fear has been going on for a year. I was even afraid to go to the dentist bc I thought he might tell me I have HIV. I know I need to get tested that why Im posting my experience on this forum, I just need an outlet for my fear. About a year ago I had unprotected sex with my ex-boyfriend. I was tested and I asked him if he was tested. He mentioned that since he was on a professional track team stds testing was required (don't know how truthful that is) Well about 4 months after dating I got sick for like 3 days when I traveled out of state (This could be related to my flight or SAR, I don't know) also too mention when we broke up my knees were aching for a month and I had slight nausea for 4 months, now this could be related to the break up bc I was heart broken and this is when my fear started bc I didn't want anymore pain. 6 months after the break I started having night sweat, when im stressed I usually get night sweats and I was so stressed thinking about AIDS, my ex and my life (I would cry constantly and sleep for 15 hrs bc I felt it was no point of getting up.) Now for this pass yearhaving night sweats and they usually coincide with me feeling anxious and depressed. Sometimes I have these feelings of "shock" or a "sinking" feeling in my chest and a nurse practitioner said I was having a mild panic attack (IDK). Currently I've been feeling anxiety again and im having night sweats, I wonder if this AIDS. I talked to my ex again about stds and he promised me he was clean. We're still in contact with each other so we talk about it, but I get the feeling he's not telling to whole truth. Sometimes the top of my hands itch especially if i feel depressed. I can't determine if my lymph nodes are swallon bc I feel both my lymphs on my neck, there tiny little bubbles (I don't think I should be able to feel anything...idk) but my neck has always felt like that. Can someone describe a swollen lymph node? Should I not be able to feel anything? Well anyways I dont know if my night sweats are related to anxiety and depression or AIDS. I really want to get tested but the idea a positive test makes me sick to my stomach. My ex thinks im crazy, but I bet he was tested and had partners after being tested. I had a cold sore in December, I guess that's again another sign. Ive been having right side back pain off on for teo months. I went to the doctor and him a gonorrhea syphilis and chlamydiain all test results were negative. I stiil need to a HIV test and terrified bc this night sweats. Please some advice and what's your opinion on the night sweat situation (no other symptoms).
unless it's pea sized or larger then it's not really swollen - and it's best left to the doctors to decide anyway. also, the more the prod them and poke them the more tender they will become!
Can you provide feedback on lymph nodes. I don't how to check them. I feel a little bubble thing but Im not sure if thats a node or if its swollen.
night sweats are not specific to hiv...nor are most other symptoms. get the test, get your life back. and if somehow you turn out to be positive (sounds very unlikely in your case) - get treatment instead of dying. i wish you all the best.
Well the best way it's to get test ...I know how it's feel ... get the test and closed the chapter .. I did test at 28 days 4 th generation .negative result after unprotected sex with a girl who was virgin n even tested for hiv the next day ...her result were negative ..after test closing the chapter is important ...I m victim to stress as I start to think about pass protected sex....my advise get the test done ...
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