Hi and welcome to the forum.
You are so young and it seems unfair to be going through this,
at this time of your life.
And considering what you've suffered so much emotionally with your dysfunctional relationship in recent years, I can't help but feel some of your pain.
Definitely there's a connection to your memory issues and your emotional
trauma suffered during this abusive relationship.
It may not qualify for the "clinical" dx of PTSD, but it may well be a close variant.
You need to get this evaluated professionally, before any recommendations can be made.
My suspicion is that you need expert therapy, in order to deal with all of the
"stuff" that is still deep inside you, before any significant improvement in your mental and emotional status can be experienced.
Please take time to read my replies in this community, as you may find some useful suggestions there.
And post again to give us an update or to ask questions.
I am not taking any medication, I was on Birth Control but I went off of it because it was making me sick.
I went to counseling and it did not do anything for me.
While I don't doubt that often counselling and talk therapy or CBT
do not produce the desired results, there are other newer energy based therapies where patients enjoy near- immediate readily observable
results for various unresolved issues even after many years of traditional psychotherapy.
To find Energy Psychology Therapists in your area, visit the Association for Comprehensive Energy Psychology.
(I am an Advanced EFT Practitioner and a Board Certified Hypnotherapist)
SPECT Brain Imaging may help identify memory, depression and other
related issues. It will help check the health status of your brain.
Just do a search for this.
Hope this helps.
I have wanted to get a spect test, but the counselor I went to said I would have to be referred to someone
It probably has to do with insurance and payment.
If you are paying, trust me, they will accept you w/o any referral.
For a better understanding, visit Dr. Amen's website, very well designed,
that gives a ton of info on anything you want to know regarding spect imaging,brain oriented treatments for wide range of issues, from attentional problems, anxiety issues, mood problems, autism, obsessive compulsive disorder, addictions, obesity, memory, learning and behavioral problems.
Note: This is not a recommendation. I have no dealings and no personal experience with Dr. Amen's Clinics. My suggestion is given with the intention of you getting more info and details in this area of brain health.
It seems that you are striking out with your counsellors, so far!