Talk to your, parents or school councillor, therapist grand parents, Lucy anybody that is involved in your daily life. Their are professionals to help you with this
And what have you done? Have you seen a psychiatrist or psychologist? You need a diagnosis.
maybe you should check out iacworld.org in case you are parapsychic and hear things when you enter into the altered state as you're falling asleep. I had these kinds of experiences as a kid and got no help from parents either.
I'm sorry you are doing this alone. Please take a good look around and see if there is a close family friend, relative, teacher, or another adult that can assist you.