hi I just posted my story on a new question in the ocd community. can you read please and tell me what you think? thank you! it's title hocd or denial? so confused" or something like that.
Yes, the forum is still up and running. Please look at the other posts regarding HOCD...there are quite a few...almost all of them actually, as well as my own post regarding "The Anatomy of a Horrific Thought"....and then get back to me with any questions you have by starting your own thread. Things gets lost when they are on older threads.
Hi just wanted to know if this website is still being used so I can talk to someone? Pretty sure I've got hocd.
hello logan! i am going through the exact things, im 15 as well! It's those little voices i hear in my head like "oh you're a lesbian, you just aren't admitting it" but deep deeeeep down i know i am straight. since these sudden thoughts its like im making myself believe i am and it is just horrible! I started school about a month ago and i honestly thought these thoughts were going to go away but they haven't one bit. i finally told my mom and she made an appointment for me this saturday morning to see my doctor. I really hope i get the help you got. I cry at night because these thought just worsen and they make me feel so sick :( How are you doing?
That is wonderful news. Finally, I'm glad that somebody has listened to you and is helping you. Take care.
I went to a psychiatric facility and they gave me my medicine. I'm doing much better. I'm not 100% okay, but I think I will soon.
Logan...read what OCDMaven wrote at the bottom of the following thread. I think it will be of help to you.
http://www.medhelp.org/forums/Obsessive-Compulsive-Disorder-OCD-/show/231
I was at my sister's school today and I kept thinking people thought I was a lesbian and that gave me anxiety. Thoughts like "You're alone" and blah blah kept popping up in my head and then I had a minor anxiety attack. Is that part of the HOCD? I don't know why I keep having this thoughts.
You are exactly right...the OCD needs to be treated because it is the thoughts that are causing the anxiety. Get rid of the thoughts and there will be no anxiety.
I'm just tired that everyone I talk to is only focusing on the anxiety. I want help with these thoughts. Now I'm worried that I don't care about being a lesbian, but that "judging." thing. I was excited for school but whenever I think about it, thoughts like "People will judge you" and stuff like that pop into my head and I think "But how will they find out?" and that gives me anxiety. I don't even want to go to school anymore. I've never seen anyone with HOCD talk about thinking those things.
Hopefully the next person will be better. If not, then find another and another until you find somebody that actually knows what they are talking about. Having anxiety that is off the hook enough to lead to suicidal attempts is not "normal." This pisses me off actually. I'm very sorry that you have gotten the short end of the stick here. I promise you that with the RIGHT help you will get better. Just know that. Keep it in the back of your mind. I know it feels like the end of the world but it really isn't. I have been down that low and I have come back. It is doable and it is doable by you. So keep pressing on and don't give in until you are satisfied that the person you are seeing is helping you.
I'm in the crisis deparment because of my anxiety and sucidal attemps. My parents told me today that they're going to let me see a new physchologist once I start school next week. I'm worried that he or she will say the same thing the one I'm talking to now will because the new therapist is also from the same medical center I'm going to.
Really...what you are going through is normal? I think not. WTH....did you see a psychologist? I cannot believe that someone would say that having HOCD, which is what I think you have but I'm no doctor, is normal. Get yourself a 2nd opinion because it looks like this person is going to be of absolutely no help to you and that really is a shame. I'm so sorry you have been dealing with this and when the appointment comes around you are told it is normal. Ugh!!!!!!!
I had one today, but the therapist keeps saying it's "normal" and just part of growing up.
Did you have your therapy appointment?
Lately I've been worried because whenever I think about starting school again, I think "People will judge me" and stuff like that and I get anxiety because I'm thinking that in the first place, but whenever those thoughts pop up, I get nervous. That sounds like something gay people think. Also, we were gonna go to church on Saturday and those "judging" thoughts popped into my head and I didn't want to go to church. Same thing today. I really don't know what's happening to me. I also feel "boy-ish" and gross and whenever I look at myself in the mirror I think "lesbian." Can someone please tell me what's going on?