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Having a break down
I am losing the battle here. I am not looking for anyone to feel sorry for me, like I told my PCP went I called them they dont even have to call me back, I don't want to waste anymore of their time, you don't even have to reply to this post. I just need to get stuff off my chest here.
I am crying and in pain, I am doing my best to hide it from my kids but they know what is going on. I am getting weak and all I want to do is sleep and I can't even do that cause of the pain. I called my PCP this morning and told them i am just giving them a update they don't have to call me back i have already wasted enough of their time. I told them about me getting into see the pain dr on the 20th and how my daugthers birthday is this weekend that is why i have tried so hard to eat so i could be strong for her birthday but that isn't happening either. So I will either be in the hospital getting fluids in my body by IV or be in bed on her birthday. My PCP nurse called back and told me to go to the ER to get some help and I told her that isn't a option, I am depressed enough I don't need to go there and get treated like a drug seeker cause we all know that is what they do. She said they can put fluids in my body and give me a few days of pain meds so I can eat. But no way I will go there, they treat people like me like crap and it isn't worth it. I told her I am about to give up cause I can't do this anymore. this pain has messed up my life and now I am living in h*ll. I don't think they totally understand all of this. I only need treatment for 20 days that is it. But they don't care. I told her I will end up in the hosptial before to long cause I will be really sick soon. Thanks for listening. I have to go pull myself together before one of my kids see me like this.
Jamie
I am crying and in pain, I am doing my best to hide it from my kids but they know what is going on. I am getting weak and all I want to do is sleep and I can't even do that cause of the pain. I called my PCP this morning and told them i am just giving them a update they don't have to call me back i have already wasted enough of their time. I told them about me getting into see the pain dr on the 20th and how my daugthers birthday is this weekend that is why i have tried so hard to eat so i could be strong for her birthday but that isn't happening either. So I will either be in the hospital getting fluids in my body by IV or be in bed on her birthday. My PCP nurse called back and told me to go to the ER to get some help and I told her that isn't a option, I am depressed enough I don't need to go there and get treated like a drug seeker cause we all know that is what they do. She said they can put fluids in my body and give me a few days of pain meds so I can eat. But no way I will go there, they treat people like me like crap and it isn't worth it. I told her I am about to give up cause I can't do this anymore. this pain has messed up my life and now I am living in h*ll. I don't think they totally understand all of this. I only need treatment for 20 days that is it. But they don't care. I told her I will end up in the hosptial before to long cause I will be really sick soon. Thanks for listening. I have to go pull myself together before one of my kids see me like this.
Jamie
Thanks everyone. I am hoping and praying for a miracle here, I know miracles do happen to some people I just don't know if I am good enough person for it to happen to me. I am trying everything I can. I know my PCP won't give me any more refills unless she grows a heart and I hear that is hard to do once you lose yours. I took my kids to the store with me and I was looking at the bottom shelf at something and when I went to stand up my head started to spin and I thought for sure I was going to faint, next thing i know my daughter grabs my arm so I wouldn't fall on the floor. I know bad thing to happen when your own kids have to help you get around.
If I am not any better by Friday I am going to have my husband take me to a different Er not the one in my town. They judge people way to much and I already know what they will say. Unless I get the good dr that works there but what are the chances in that. My husband is off work friday.
I had to go to my daughters game tonight, I am the only one that can take score, my daughter kept asking me to stay home and everyone at the game kept asking if I was feeling ok cause I didn't look good, oh g thanks.
When my husband was really sick they did this test on his arm and pushed their finger on it and if it took more then a few seconds to turn from white to his normal color and they looked in his mouth and his tounge was white they said he was dehydrated. I have the samethings going on, plus the dizzy spills is a big give away too.
I know i am in bad shape, I am trying to eat atleast alittle for dinner everyday. Not alot but a few bites and hope that will hold me over. I know it wont but atleast it is something. Plus after I eat I have to deal with even more pain just from the movement of my mouth. I am trying to drink water too.
We will see how I feel tomorrow and maybe tomorrow i will get a miracle, I will pray for one tonight. I just keep waking up and thinking today will be different, my pain wont' get bad today and the day and my pain proves me so wrong. I have been with my PCP for 6 years, she was my OB when I was pregnant for Austin, she isn't a OB anymore. She was my sons dr until she kept trying to make me give him milk even tho when he drank it he kept puking really bad and his face would swell up, He woke up one morning with his eyes swollen shut I took him in to see her and she said he had pink eye, I said bull I want you to send him to a allergist something is wrong, she said he was just picking and he wasn't allergic to anything but she will send him to one just to make me happy. well he had tests done and we found out he was allergic to Milk, eggs, peanuts, chocolate and a few more, he don't see her anymore he has a great dr now.
Thanks for your answers and ideas.
Jamie
If I am not any better by Friday I am going to have my husband take me to a different Er not the one in my town. They judge people way to much and I already know what they will say. Unless I get the good dr that works there but what are the chances in that. My husband is off work friday.
I had to go to my daughters game tonight, I am the only one that can take score, my daughter kept asking me to stay home and everyone at the game kept asking if I was feeling ok cause I didn't look good, oh g thanks.
When my husband was really sick they did this test on his arm and pushed their finger on it and if it took more then a few seconds to turn from white to his normal color and they looked in his mouth and his tounge was white they said he was dehydrated. I have the samethings going on, plus the dizzy spills is a big give away too.
I know i am in bad shape, I am trying to eat atleast alittle for dinner everyday. Not alot but a few bites and hope that will hold me over. I know it wont but atleast it is something. Plus after I eat I have to deal with even more pain just from the movement of my mouth. I am trying to drink water too.
We will see how I feel tomorrow and maybe tomorrow i will get a miracle, I will pray for one tonight. I just keep waking up and thinking today will be different, my pain wont' get bad today and the day and my pain proves me so wrong. I have been with my PCP for 6 years, she was my OB when I was pregnant for Austin, she isn't a OB anymore. She was my sons dr until she kept trying to make me give him milk even tho when he drank it he kept puking really bad and his face would swell up, He woke up one morning with his eyes swollen shut I took him in to see her and she said he had pink eye, I said bull I want you to send him to a allergist something is wrong, she said he was just picking and he wasn't allergic to anything but she will send him to one just to make me happy. well he had tests done and we found out he was allergic to Milk, eggs, peanuts, chocolate and a few more, he don't see her anymore he has a great dr now.
Thanks for your answers and ideas.
Jamie
sweetie PLEASE take the good advice you've been given, your daughter needs you and loves you, don't ever give up the fight.
We all care...and will walk along side you dear.
We all care...and will walk along side you dear.
HI Sweetheart,
I've been off the board most of the day because of Dr.'s appointments or I would have posted when this FIRST came up.
PLEASE take Tuck's advice. IF you can't eat don't worry what the ER thinks!! You need to go and get nourishment if you are not putting anything in your Body.
Tuck is EXACTLY correct about everything. You know that your PCP isn't going to give you anything because she had already told you that. You knew that you were lucky to get the last script. You even said that. So NOW you need to take care of yourself for your kids and your Hubby. There is a chance that you can get the ER to call your PM Dr. and they might tell them to give you something until it's time for your appointment.
If you want call your PM Dr. tomorrow and see if they would do that if you go to the ER. BUT, either way go in and get yourself taken care of.
If nothing else the ER MIGHT be able to give you some suggestions as to what to do to help the pain. It's worth a try. ANYTHING is better than what you are going thru now.
Let's face it, from the sound of your post you CAN'T get anymore depressed than you already are. You DON'T know these people there and chances are they won't treat you the way you are afraid that they will.
Jamie, if it was me, I'd GO. PLEASE, Honey, DON'T do this to yourself and your kids and Hubby. They are VERY worried about you already. This could make is BETTER for EVERYONE.
You know that we are here for you ALWAYS. That's why we are so concerned for you.
PLEASE GO!!!!....I love you and am here for YOU.....Sherry
I've been off the board most of the day because of Dr.'s appointments or I would have posted when this FIRST came up.
PLEASE take Tuck's advice. IF you can't eat don't worry what the ER thinks!! You need to go and get nourishment if you are not putting anything in your Body.
Tuck is EXACTLY correct about everything. You know that your PCP isn't going to give you anything because she had already told you that. You knew that you were lucky to get the last script. You even said that. So NOW you need to take care of yourself for your kids and your Hubby. There is a chance that you can get the ER to call your PM Dr. and they might tell them to give you something until it's time for your appointment.
If you want call your PM Dr. tomorrow and see if they would do that if you go to the ER. BUT, either way go in and get yourself taken care of.
If nothing else the ER MIGHT be able to give you some suggestions as to what to do to help the pain. It's worth a try. ANYTHING is better than what you are going thru now.
Let's face it, from the sound of your post you CAN'T get anymore depressed than you already are. You DON'T know these people there and chances are they won't treat you the way you are afraid that they will.
Jamie, if it was me, I'd GO. PLEASE, Honey, DON'T do this to yourself and your kids and Hubby. They are VERY worried about you already. This could make is BETTER for EVERYONE.
You know that we are here for you ALWAYS. That's why we are so concerned for you.
PLEASE GO!!!!....I love you and am here for YOU.....Sherry
Hey!
I have an idea... Call your PCP's office and make an appointment to be seen by the doctor. Tell them you are not feeling well since you are having difficulty eating and drinking and just want to be sure you are not getting severely dehydrated. Tell them you are doing the best you can under the circumstances and would prefer to be seen by your own doctor to check for the dehydration instead of a hospital ER (long wait there.. with kids, etc...)
Maybe, just maybe your PCP will look you straight in the face and see the pain you are in - notice the weight you are losing, and do something. Explain to her you only have 20 more days to wait (not eating) until you see the pain doctor... and ask her for your best course of treatment regarding nutrition till you can be seen and treated for pain. (don't ask for pain meds - hopefully she will see your pain and offer them to you...)
Heck, it can't hurt - and sometimes they just need to see it for themselves instead of just a secretary translating a conversation she had with you over the phone. Maybe all it will take is your PCP seeing with her very eyes the pain you are in.
I will keep thinking... but maybe that might work?
I have an idea... Call your PCP's office and make an appointment to be seen by the doctor. Tell them you are not feeling well since you are having difficulty eating and drinking and just want to be sure you are not getting severely dehydrated. Tell them you are doing the best you can under the circumstances and would prefer to be seen by your own doctor to check for the dehydration instead of a hospital ER (long wait there.. with kids, etc...)
Maybe, just maybe your PCP will look you straight in the face and see the pain you are in - notice the weight you are losing, and do something. Explain to her you only have 20 more days to wait (not eating) until you see the pain doctor... and ask her for your best course of treatment regarding nutrition till you can be seen and treated for pain. (don't ask for pain meds - hopefully she will see your pain and offer them to you...)
Heck, it can't hurt - and sometimes they just need to see it for themselves instead of just a secretary translating a conversation she had with you over the phone. Maybe all it will take is your PCP seeing with her very eyes the pain you are in.
I will keep thinking... but maybe that might work?
I was thinking the same thing, pedialite or ensure, that way you can get some calories in you and you could possibly use a straw. Jamie, how long did you have your pcp? I'm just curious how they could have become so heartless to you, and why? I think what your doctor is doing is practically malpractice and I just don't understand what or why she is doing it? Have you tried making an appointment with her to talk to her face to face, or is she completely telling you she won't treat you for anything? I'm just so shocked and in disbelief for you and want to call for you and tell that doctor off. I'm so sorry Jamie that you're going through this, are you at least taking advil, or anything? I would still agree to go to the ER and tell them the dr. sent you there.
I am so sorry...
I know it hurts to eat and open your mouth.. but can you use a straw? Does it hurt to swallow? Someone else had suggested letting jello melt in your mouth - or Ensure...
Or maybe pedialite? or ice cream?
Please tell us you have been getting something in you...
Sayin a prayer...
I know it hurts to eat and open your mouth.. but can you use a straw? Does it hurt to swallow? Someone else had suggested letting jello melt in your mouth - or Ensure...
Or maybe pedialite? or ice cream?
Please tell us you have been getting something in you...
Sayin a prayer...
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