suicide?!?!

[crazycurious11]

Okay I know I'm going to get a lot of negative comments on this but I need help and this just hit me yesterday so I haven't had time to seek professional help. So I was with my boyfriend for 3 years, I'm crazy obsessed with him till this day and he is with me we love each other soooooo much but we had broken up for a few months and I moved on and he moved on but we ended up having sex and he finished inside me (we were not together) and he did something that made me really upset so I had sex with a friend a week later and he finished inside me as well (he says he didn't and wants no part) so a month later I find out I'm pregnant and me and the guy I love got back together. He doesn't know what I did though and I never thought about it until now, were getting married in a few days and I was so excited we love this baby but yesterday he called me crying that he had a fight with his mom  and that she asked for a DNA test and that's when it finally hit me how stupid and such a **** that I was :'( I been going CRAZYY literally since yesterday I want to kill myself thought about hurting my baby but I just can't I'm seriously going crazy I've been laying in my bed kicking and screaming and praying for the past 5 hours. I don't want to choose between my babys life, mine or my relationship with the love of my life. Losing any of those would kill me!! I'm 10 weeks pregnant and I'm 18 years old Im getting married but now not looking forward to having this baby because it might not be his!! Idk what to do!! I'm so lost, confused, deppressed, crazy!! Please I need advice.......judge me if you must but I really dont need it........

[crazycurious11]

I am so scared. I don't feel attached to my baby I know its there but I can't imagine losing the love of my life

[jamie4321]

it could still be your boyfriends baby it was so close its hard to tell and if u kill your self you would take the life of your own child no matter who the daddy is its still a part of u as parents we are subpost to proteck our babys not hurt them so please think about that little soul u have inside u and it thinking mommy a keep me safe your baby needs u more then ever he/she cant make it without u.so please stop and think about the baby u have inside u this baby a love u no matter what.u got so much to look forward too first birthday/first christmas/first easter/first halloween theres so much u would miss out on if u end your young life.just rember no matter who is in r out your life your baby a allways be there for u no matter what.lets not forget the first kicks u a feel and seeing him/her for the first time on u/s thats so wounderfull seeing your baby for the first time its face/hands/feet these r just a few things u would miss.if u need someone to talk to look me up on here i log in everyday i hope this helps u god bless and take care of your self and  your baby.

[AnnieBrooke]

ps -- if you do want to postpone the wedding, you don't have to tell the world why.  Lots of 18-year-olds postpone their weddings, and outsiders to the situation often write it off to a teenager coming to his or her senses.  It might be a 7-day wonder in your circle of friends, but it won't be a big deal unless, of course, the word gets out that you aren't sure whose baby it is.

[AnnieBrooke]

Well, you might want to postpone the wedding, or you might want to have a talk with your fiance.  I am sorry his mom is so untrusting, but it has to be faced that she is also correct, you do have the chance going on that the baby is not your fiance's.  

Either simply postpone the wedding on a pretext, without telling your fiance why, or tell your fiance the way you told it here, that you are crazy in love with him and did one stupid thing and simply did not think of it as meaning there was any question about paternity but now you realize there is a chance, and you are being honest and giving him the chance to back out.  Be sure he understands it was a one-time deal, that you are not cheating on him in this relationship.  Expect that he might want to postpone the wedding while he thinks this news over.  It's a lot to digest at 18, especially after all the drama.  Suicide is not the answer, it will take your life and the life of an innocent.  No matter whose baby it is, you can probably make a life for it even if you have to do so by yourself.