Leave him. They never get better trust me...
I'm in your boat, love. I've been with the man who's given me the child in me for almost 6 years. In the first 4 he was my best friend - when my best friend killed himself, he was there. Every time I wanted to kill myself after, he stopped me. I owe him my life.
He doesn't abuse me physically very much, mostly emotionally. He's done a lot of things to me physically, and I think the worst part is I always fight back. I'll say things he doesn't like, and no matter what it is, if he gets too upset, he'll slap me as hard as he can and throw things and scream in my face, or spit in my face. Whenever he does, I scream back and ask him if he wants to see how it felt when he slapped me and he'll laugh, so I'll do it back. Whenever he adds things on, I do it back. The last time we fought was on Tuesday. He slapped me twice, the second time I almost fell and smashed the glass table beside us. He laughed and said "Seriously are you that weak?!" So I shoved him back and ended up fracturing my middle finger in two places.
Somehow I still love him, because we aren't always like that. He tries to make me apologize first for things he started, and sometimes I do. I want to leave and I have before. But I always end up going back and it always ends up being worse. I tell you all this because I don't want you to have to feel as helpless as I do. Leave while you can before you've gotten so far into it that you don't remember how.
There's actually a forum for abuse on medhelp. Not sure how active it is. PLEASE BE CAREFUL! I grew up abused and was in a highly abusive relationship for years. I gained PTSD from it. That's all I will say. I hate talking about my disorder. :/ You deserve safety AND love. :) good luck, mama.
Ok ppl may not like me for saying this but as a women there's something about that man keeping you there or you would have left longtime ago Iif your being abused do ssomething about it pregnant or not don't allow no man cause that's all he is be strong enough to leave or strong enough to hold it together and put that abusive man in his place
The year we were together with my son i would abuse me he did it a few times in front of my son nd now i find out from his family that lives close by that my son doesn't.talk yey he will b five in july. I told my mom about it she says it bc he was tramatized from when his dad would put his hands on me and now im 5mon.pg and promised myswlf i would never iny lif let that happen again
They have groups you can contact that'll help you leave. No one wants you in this kind of situation. No one. Not even people who have no clue you exist. Please, think of your baby boy