Ya know, you were wrong, you admitted it, your folks were wrong (they should admit it and apologize as well), but it sounds like a long history of bad feelings there. She has a right to be hurt this is true, but it sounds like she is using every single little thing to exercise control and to continue to be a victim. You need to take back some of the control over your own life at some point as obviously she is more interested in punishing you than working on the marriage. I still believe only a few women are strong enuff to survive their spouse having an affair. What you are describing is the path leading to not making it in your marriage. I am not sure she is capable of anything other than blame at this point, it has worked for her in helping her get her way and loads of attention. At some point you just got to smell the roses and move on. The ball is in her court and it is time you let her know that. I mean, I am almost beginning to understand how the affair happened as wrong as it was. Who could live like this for very long without killing each other? With her mood swings I would watch my back my friend.
I really admire you for making this work and still hope deep down that it does. But what worries me is your wife seems to not feel she has any responsibility in this. She needs to also try to make changes to get the relationship back on track. I'm worried that she is depressed or more with regards to her mental state and things can't get better until that is addressed. She seems so unwilling to seek any help or ownership of what SHE does to derail this relationship that I feel the chances of success with that are not high. And because you did wrong and have guilt over it, you are not able to tell her forcefully or with any credibility that she MUST address her own problems in order for this relationship to work out. You are in a difficult situation. I think that it was good that you were trying to bring romance/connection back and you had some good moments with that. I'd continue that and try to make it to a couples therapist. I'd bring up in therapy that she is unwilling to move on and repair the relationship, that she verbally and physically attempts to abuse you, etc. She'll want to attack you for that------- but she needs help with it. I'd also start to think about worst case scenario. And before that happens (as in you have to leave her)--------- I'd lay it on the line. SHE needs to address her chemical imbalance, she needs to get involved with some sort of anger management program, and you will give her a chance to fix HERSELF or you will have to leave. Just my thoughts on it---------- but if she does not address the above two issues---------- this relationship will end. For your own sake, it would have to. And quite frankly, I'm worried about your daughter in the environment with such a volatile mother. good luck
I think i'm loosing it, cant understand this situation.
I don't feel like going home after work. Only thing that draws me back is my daughter. I am slowly feeling the indifference towards her, constant bickering now is getting into my nerve. Constant snooping, sniffing for any evidence against me, every bit of stuff in the house is looked into with suspicion whether it belongs to the other woman or not. Making up imaginary stories in the mind and starts believing them and interrogating me on them. It seems so damn suffocating.....
I really think that you are going to have to lay it on the line for her. She needs to take recovery of this relationship seriously. She must embrace moving on. She can be angry but she can not ruminate over things and pick fights to the point of physical altercations. She just can't. And she needs to know this. She needs to address her difficulty in handling her anger and find appropriate ways of dealing with it. I'd really love it if she addressed her mental state. I don't mean that in a condescending way but she appears to be suffering from a chemical imbalance and that will cloud all else until it is dealt with. I hope this works out as you would like it so. But she will need to want it to work out as well.
No Specialmom, i'm really not concerned with these, I have told her that she can do whatever she wants to do and in fact she did go to my superiors but they advised to sort it out ourself only. My wife has very frequent mood swings, she will be happy now and moment later she will think of some past event and get upset and start her things over...
Whenever i have tried to tell her this she then complains that i dont love her and thats why i'm complaining. No amount pf talking has helped till date.
I'm in this relation and want it to work because..
1. I have really done something very wrong...
2. We have a daughter now and want to give her a good upbringing.
3. I'm really not sure what love is at this moment and cannot truely answer my love for my wife...I want to be with her but when she is upset it doen't seems to work...Thats why i asked about the sexual part.
Here is something I am not understanding---------- your wife seems to threaten you a lot. She'll go to your superiors, take you and your parents to court, etc. Are these real concerns of yours? Is this why you stay? What if you told her to go ahead and you don't care. Then maybe she will work on the relationship for real rather than "lording" something over you.
With regards to the mother issue. Hopefully you will never have to choose . . . but if you do, choose your wife because your mother will then bend. Mother's tend to bend more if they think they have to. But the best thing is to keep the peace and tell them both that you expect this. You should be able to love both women and I'm sure it is much more complex than what we will understand here.
For building romance, are you still apart with your station? I'd write her lovely letters and try to stay as connected as possible. When you are together, spend time together without your daughter as often as possible. Remember when you were dating, think in terms of that. That romancing her needs to start all over again. Romance does not always mean sex . . . some women love good conversation, doing something they love to do with their mate, getting a neck rub. Start doing those things as if you are just now getting together. Start greeting her every time she or you walk in the door and say good bye with a hug and kiss every time she or you walk out of the door. Bring her flowers. All that stuff. But most of all, start doing things together that you both enjoy and try to reconnect.
Good luck