Well, he might have once been your soul mate, but in his present state he is not your soul mate. Whoever he once was, he is not that person any more. Unless he decides to go for help and change his outlook, you can't impact that fact. Good luck to him, but you are well out of it.
I will agree with you AnnieBrooke, it is not healthy. And it is exactly why we are separated. I guess I am old school..as in..when I took my vows, it was for better/worse and sickness/health. Its sad to see someone you love change this way. And knowing that there is nothing you can do to help, unless he wants to help himself. He has told me how he is hurting, and that he is having a hard time. He truly was my soul mate.
Thank you Life360 for commenting. Indeed you are correct, he had 2 relationships both cheated on him. (in his younger years-25 yrs ago). Which I pointed out to him..I am not them. I am the wife and mother he has been with for over 20 years. I also tried telling him if i was not happy in the marriage, I would not even consider cheating. I would leave the marriage. The day we separated he made a comment that I will never forget..."Things were too good therefor you must be guilty of something". And "If it wasn't for the trust issues everything would be perfect". I know he loves me, but I also know that there is something in his mind (possibly fear) tormenting his thought process. And about every 14 days he always found something, to text me about.His way of staying in contact I'm guessing.But its now 36 days and no contact.Now I find it hard, not sure if I will ever hear from him...
Thanks for your comment. No he was not controlling in any other way. Actually his jealousy/trust issues is only in the past 7 yrs.(since my conversations with acquaintance which I did not share with him). But I assumed with his low self esteem by taking & passing the lie detector it would erase any doubt he was hanging onto.I displayed actions as a devoted spouse would. He had all my attention, all the time. I went nowhere without him,(I never complained). The only time he was not with me is when we were both at work 8-4pm. Since that was the only time I was on my own-he accused me of having lovers at my work.
Don't try to get him back. Someone that controlling and insecure will just mess with your head. You should never play along with someone like that.
Hi there. Sorry about the end of your marriage. He may have some obsessive thinking but since his issues are strictly related to thinking you were cheating, it would be hard to say he had mental illness.
After 20 years of marriage, you are right. This is who he is. I think I'd not have played into it starting in year one and said--- we go to a counselor together and then you go to one on your own to get over it. But after so many years of your going along trying to appease him, that was the dynamic of your relationship deeply ingrained.
Good luck and hopefully you will be able to move on. Was he controlling in other ways as well?
Some where in his past he was hurt by another girl and was left with feeling of betrayal. He swore it would never happen again and has put into action the plan he had in the back of his mind all these years.
I believe he loves you, as was with you for 20 years but the past fear is stronger than if love. Its like a survival tactic.
How to get him back? Just leave him alone and im sure he will come back. He is doing this to strike back at you and over time will miss you for sure.