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Feeling depressed
Hi. Just thought I'd start another new post, else it takes ages to come through.
I feel pretty confident that I am depressed again. May talk to my GP about it tomorrow.
I feel pretty confident that I am depressed again. May talk to my GP about it tomorrow.
You have every right to your thoughts and feelings. I think maybe it isn't all that helpful for me either. It brings back a lot of material from when I was unwell. I don't think the stuff is to be agreed with, obviously it's written from an unwell perspective, but that's how we feel. It's good if you haven't felt that degree of rejection from health professionals.
I personally don't believe in spiritual guides, etc although I have seen some TV programs and I am not ready to totally dismiss them. I think instead of having a gift though some people are just plain unwell. I don't believe in hurting oneself either and that theoretically that one should always seek assistance for overwhelming thoughts and feelings.
No, we're not saying that. We were saying that we had been misunderstood and been mistreated. I think there are many good services out there and good people. I think that I and that other person were just not a good mix for our service at that time. A time when we were unwell and needed support and weren't given the support that would help us. Only forced to accept support that made us worse. I think your situation is totally different. You have support, I don't. Your treatment team listen to you and give you as much control as they deem safe (and probably a little more for good measure), that other person is never given that benefit. They lock her up regardless. That is unhealthy. You have the most function treatment team out of all of us.
Talk to people. Don't keep quiet. I had noticed that you seemed to be engaging less. I have also been a little preoccupied with some other posts plus I felt that someone was stalking me/ harassing me which was quite time-consuming.
I've probably let my issues bubble to the surface and I haven't been as careful to contain them. Hearing someone else struggle almost felt as though I had permission to vent all the stuff nobody is there to listen to. That I don't dare tell most people.
You talk to your T. The not trusting is because of something that has happened and needs to be explored in therapy. I have times when I don't trust either. Usually it is because I feel hurt or because I don't feel as strong a connection with that person.
I think maybe the stress of everything. I think you're hurting as much as we are, perhaps more. You feel a little more raw at this time.
Talk to me about how bad you feel if you want. You can send it to my e-mail address if you want. I can cope with it. You also need to talk to your T, etc. Can you ask for respite over the weekend?
Talk to me ...
I personally don't believe in spiritual guides, etc although I have seen some TV programs and I am not ready to totally dismiss them. I think instead of having a gift though some people are just plain unwell. I don't believe in hurting oneself either and that theoretically that one should always seek assistance for overwhelming thoughts and feelings.
No, we're not saying that. We were saying that we had been misunderstood and been mistreated. I think there are many good services out there and good people. I think that I and that other person were just not a good mix for our service at that time. A time when we were unwell and needed support and weren't given the support that would help us. Only forced to accept support that made us worse. I think your situation is totally different. You have support, I don't. Your treatment team listen to you and give you as much control as they deem safe (and probably a little more for good measure), that other person is never given that benefit. They lock her up regardless. That is unhealthy. You have the most function treatment team out of all of us.
Talk to people. Don't keep quiet. I had noticed that you seemed to be engaging less. I have also been a little preoccupied with some other posts plus I felt that someone was stalking me/ harassing me which was quite time-consuming.
I've probably let my issues bubble to the surface and I haven't been as careful to contain them. Hearing someone else struggle almost felt as though I had permission to vent all the stuff nobody is there to listen to. That I don't dare tell most people.
You talk to your T. The not trusting is because of something that has happened and needs to be explored in therapy. I have times when I don't trust either. Usually it is because I feel hurt or because I don't feel as strong a connection with that person.
I think maybe the stress of everything. I think you're hurting as much as we are, perhaps more. You feel a little more raw at this time.
Talk to me about how bad you feel if you want. You can send it to my e-mail address if you want. I can cope with it. You also need to talk to your T, etc. Can you ask for respite over the weekend?
Talk to me ...
No, you didn't chase me away, my mind is other places these days. That other stuff is a really big trigger for me as i really don't agree with alot of the stuff, I understand everyone is different and has different experiences so i probably don't have the right to say that but i am struggling to keep myself safe as maybe alot of others are and to read that, its like saying there is no help available anywhere and if that is the case then i may as well kill myself before i waste my therapists time next week. If there is no hope then i may as well go now. I am hanging on by a very thin thread these days and i am keeping it all underneath as to not upset anyone. I can't trust my therapist enough to tell him how i feel, i know i have support but it doesn't mean i don't feel really bad and well where do i turn now. Anyway, maybe my mind is already made up i just need a little push in the direction i am going, its a nice day for a drive, i'm not sure why i'm so angry now and feeling unstable.
It is going to be hard for you once a lot of your difficult stuff is brought out into the open.
Me too.
The suicide thread seems to have been continued on the mh expert forum. If you wanted to keep posting there or add your thoughts you should. I almost feel like I chased you away. You know you can post there if you want, don't you.
Maybe staying away is also healthier as some of it could be quite stressful to hear especially if you're looking to do some intense therapy shortly. I write because I don't have that support. Which isn't healthy. I'm not healthy.
Just wanted to make sure that you were OK with whatever.
Me too.
The suicide thread seems to have been continued on the mh expert forum. If you wanted to keep posting there or add your thoughts you should. I almost feel like I chased you away. You know you can post there if you want, don't you.
Maybe staying away is also healthier as some of it could be quite stressful to hear especially if you're looking to do some intense therapy shortly. I write because I don't have that support. Which isn't healthy. I'm not healthy.
Just wanted to make sure that you were OK with whatever.
I was with my social worker today and she said that the sessions will be very intense and i am expected to talk in detail about what happens so she said three sessions will be enough, she said that they have to keep it safe for me, so i understand it more now. I am planning to come home on Wednesday i have a course i go to and my baby goes to the playgroup there and the health visitor is coming to assess my three yr old so i want to be at home for that, so my therapist said he will either come out on the Tuesday or Thursday instead, we talked to him as we were leaving, his office is in the same building where i see the social worker.
I feel strange with him at times but i need to remind myself he has always been there for me and he is trying to help and i would rather talk to him than somebody i didn't know.
Its really warm today its strange because it has been cold for so long.
I feel slightly calmer these days but i think its because of the therapy on Monday, they said not to put all my hopes on it that i should view it has just the beginning and not the cure to it all. I said its probably the calm before the storm.
My social worker said she will also call out on Monday evening after the first session and the staff there will be aware of why i am there and she said if they feel its not safe for me to go home they won't allow me, that makes me anxious.
I usually feel better at night, the mornings are my worst i am unbearable to listen to and i feel so stressed.
I hope you have a good day.
I feel strange with him at times but i need to remind myself he has always been there for me and he is trying to help and i would rather talk to him than somebody i didn't know.
Its really warm today its strange because it has been cold for so long.
I feel slightly calmer these days but i think its because of the therapy on Monday, they said not to put all my hopes on it that i should view it has just the beginning and not the cure to it all. I said its probably the calm before the storm.
My social worker said she will also call out on Monday evening after the first session and the staff there will be aware of why i am there and she said if they feel its not safe for me to go home they won't allow me, that makes me anxious.
I usually feel better at night, the mornings are my worst i am unbearable to listen to and i feel so stressed.
I hope you have a good day.
I actually feel OK today. I usually feel most distressed at the end of the day.
Could you just feel a lack of connection with your T. I know when that happens with me I find it hard. It could be due to my GP going on leave. Real basic stuff like that. Or not not feeling like I have been heard. Sometimes it takes a bit to feel that connection again.
Could you just feel a lack of connection with your T. I know when that happens with me I find it hard. It could be due to my GP going on leave. Real basic stuff like that. Or not not feeling like I have been heard. Sometimes it takes a bit to feel that connection again.
I have replied to your other post on the expert forum here.
I guess you said all that because its bothering you, and i understand your frustration, i think professionals do care but they don't show it really well. Its unfair that they haven't given you support and now you feel worse. I agree hospital's aren't the best place but as you have told me they are the safest place sometimes and if you feel that bad maybe you should go there for your own safety.
Maybe you will get your review soon, hopefully.
I had my therapist today, our relationship is not the same i don't know why, it is really bothering me. I opened up alot to my social worker last week and i think she told him alot of things so he is referring me back to the other therapy not now but in the future. I really wish i felt the same with him, i don't want to go on Monday and if he is only coming to see me three times i won't be staying the week, i will go mad with the boredom alone but he had no understanding he said bring your i-pod and some books. I feel like he doesn't care anymore and that was what always made our relationship workable because i felt he understood and cared, also he said some stuff about the referral to social services which wasn't true i never said that stuff, i never asked him to contact them. I don't know if he is the right therapist or not, he wants me to remain hopeful that i have the other therapy again after this, but i'm not, i'm frustrated.
I'm not suicidal these days for a while anyway. I was at my course it finished tonight i felt quite sad, i will miss them, we have our presentation night in June so i will see them then.
I hope you feel better today. Talk with your doctor or whoever can help.
I guess you said all that because its bothering you, and i understand your frustration, i think professionals do care but they don't show it really well. Its unfair that they haven't given you support and now you feel worse. I agree hospital's aren't the best place but as you have told me they are the safest place sometimes and if you feel that bad maybe you should go there for your own safety.
Maybe you will get your review soon, hopefully.
I had my therapist today, our relationship is not the same i don't know why, it is really bothering me. I opened up alot to my social worker last week and i think she told him alot of things so he is referring me back to the other therapy not now but in the future. I really wish i felt the same with him, i don't want to go on Monday and if he is only coming to see me three times i won't be staying the week, i will go mad with the boredom alone but he had no understanding he said bring your i-pod and some books. I feel like he doesn't care anymore and that was what always made our relationship workable because i felt he understood and cared, also he said some stuff about the referral to social services which wasn't true i never said that stuff, i never asked him to contact them. I don't know if he is the right therapist or not, he wants me to remain hopeful that i have the other therapy again after this, but i'm not, i'm frustrated.
I'm not suicidal these days for a while anyway. I was at my course it finished tonight i felt quite sad, i will miss them, we have our presentation night in June so i will see them then.
I hope you feel better today. Talk with your doctor or whoever can help.
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