Feeling depressed

[Jaquta]

Hi.  Just thought I'd start another new post, else it takes ages to come through.
I feel pretty confident that I am depressed again.  May talk to my GP about it tomorrow.

[Jaquta]

I'm feeling pretty stressed and aren't feeling that well.  Perhaps Dr Gould's response to the post about cutting equally applied to me.
I'm too tired to care and to deal with this right now.  Maybe tomorrow?

[inneedofhelp82]

Yeah i will post here from now on, i read the other one first so i replied there too. No, i have had panic attacks from i was 18 after the birth of my daughter, and then i became argraphobic, then developed OCD, then panic disorder, then i was assaulted and now have PTSD and the newest addition major depressive disorder. I don't know your age its not on your profile, i remember reading once that you had deleted your stuff i can't remember why.
I hope it goes well at the doctors, have a good day.

[Jaquta]

I think we should continue talking here and not in the other forum.
No, I thought I was OK.  Was surprised when I was told the diagnosis.  The surgeon also said it was rare in someone my age.  I'm not quite a dinosaur yet.  Even if I do feel like one.
Blood taken from the artery can be painful.  I had that done when I had severe asthma.
Did you panic start with the hospital?

I have to go get ready for my doctors appointment.  Still haven't done anything today and it is 10.30 am.  Yikes.

[inneedofhelp82]

I reckon they are both scary, you had time to take your illness in, mine happened so suddenly. I remember this, i was at work on the Saturday night in the nightclub, i was breathless and sick but i was 6 weeks pregnant so i thought it was that, the pain started on the Tuesday evening and at midnight i went to out of hours doctor, then he knew straight away something was wrong and he sent me to the medical team who took blood form an atery in my wrist i was so scared anyway i had to wait an hour, then they came back and said i had to stay that something was wrong, my partner had to go home as my youngest was only a year old and we were afraid he would wake up looking for us. Three days i waited for them to find out i was in so much pain i overdosed on pain relief then they wouldn't give me any more. On the Thursday the doctor planned the scans for the next day and i had to fast but i hadn't eaten in three days anyway. The morning came and the ultrasound of my gall bladder was normal so he told me they would have to do a CT scan and inject dye into my vein there was a risk i would lose the baby but if i didn't have it done there was a 1 in 3 chance i would die, so in i went go it done and an hour later they told me i had a blood clot on my right lung and i also had pnuemoina so i was alot sicker than they thought, i was tranferred to a medical ward and i was sick every 15 minutes or so, they gave me an anti-sickness injection and i reacted badly to it, i couldn't even get up in the bed and i panicked. This was Friday by now and i had lost 10lb in weight and they put me on a drip for two days, but i spent the Saturday in tears because the week before i was at work all normal and that week everything changed so much and i had to get injections to stay alive. I got home on the Monday though and was taken back in three weeks later i was allergic to the medication, so another week in hospital but the medication worked well and i made friends with a woman who was 66yrs old and she died 4 months later it was so sad, i got a second chance and she didn't. You would think i wouldn't be suicidal after all that, if it were only that simple. I don't know where all that came from, but i think your are amazingly strong to come through breast cancer and i hope you continue to stay well. I hope you have a good day.

[Jaquta]

Probably not as scary as a blood clot either.

[Jaquta]

It makes sense.  It helps you with motivation and courage.
I haven't had any tests done.  Probably but not sure.

I was actually happy.  They said I would need x many weeks of radiation at this other centre.  It was probably a bit like going away for respite for a period.  It was pretty sad and stressful though.