Hello, I am a 21 year female, 5'4 and currently weighing 130. At the moment, I am beyond frustrated. Less than two years ago I was an average of 118. After transferring to a different college in the middle of my sophomore year, I have continuously gained 4-6lbs. Last summer I left school at 128, all summer I ran, dieted, and lifted weights. I returned in the fall at 122-124 range. Back in December I went through a major life change and due to depression, dropped about 9 lbs in a month. I was back to 119. However, between March and May, I managed to gain all and if not more of the weight back. In the start of June I was at 132 (the most I have ever weighed). All summer I have devoted to losing weight. And, at first, I did. I quickly went down to 125 within 7 weeks. However, with summer ending, and my exercise routine (a half hour running every other morning, with a half hour of stretches/yoga/light cardio), combined with eliminating/drastically lowering my sugar and wheat intake, I have managed to get back up to 130.
I have taken to weighing myself twice a day now, once in the morning and once in the evening so that I am not tempted to eat at night. I am so frustrated by this gain, and am in fear of school starting only to gain another 6-8lbs.
I fear developing an eating disorder. I feel obsessive, out of control of my weight, and would like to drop this 10-12 lbs or at least maintain a weight 8 lbs less than this. I'll get excited that I have dropped 4lbs, then feel horrible after I see it creep back on faster than it was lost. I am tired of monitoring everything that goes in my month. When I snake, I snake on almonds and carrot sticks.
Any advice would be welcome. Thank you as well for being here to respond.