60 Days Off Oxycontin. 30 Days Clean From Everything

[candothis247]

Hi Everyone!

Since I smoked weed to get off oxys my sponsor wanted me to have a clean date. So we decided my 60 days off oxys would be my 30 day clean date.

I went to NA tonight and accepted my 30 day key chain. It’s pink, I have about 10 white ones (lots of you may know what I’m talking about). But I got up and shared my struggles with my addiction and how I’ve stayed clean, and got a huge round of applause for my efforts. It felt great. I’m amazed, grateful, and my self esteem is slowly climbing out of the gutter.

Although it’s been a slow process, things are getting better, I’m doing yoga and swimming, feeling stronger every day, my appetite is finally coming back, I’m up for a promotion at work, I’m still having concentration issues, but slowing getting better. Tonight I looked in the mirror and for the 1st time in a long time, I saw a twinkle in my eye.  

I month for the fog to lift, 3 months (at least) to reverse the brain damage -- I don’t know how long before my natural endorphins wake up, but they’re still sleeping.

Thank you everybody for your support, your stories on your successes and your struggles.  I can't begin to tell you how helpful this website has been in staying clean and moving towards recovery……

[salsinator]

Thank you so much for sharing your story.  My story is very similar to yours.  I was taking about 20+ norco per day and after my doctor cut me off, I started buying them online from several websites.  Bad choice, that ended up getting me in a little trouble with Home Land Security - nothing serious, but each time I travel out of the US, customs always gives me a hard time.

I figured that you were jumping from Suboxone because after 8 days, you should be feeling better.  I too was on Suboxone, for nearly 4 years.  I ran out once while taking 2 mg and the w/d was so bad for me that I continued taking it for nearly another 3 years.  I finally ended up doing a medically assisted detox because I could not taper below 2 mg on my own.  You are doing great and I am proud of you for sticking out the w/d for what should now be nearl 9 days.  I have read other posts here of people going off suboxone and it usually starts getting better at day 10, but the w/d is much longer.  Hang in there, you are almost done.  You will start feeling better soon.  I am happy for you and can't wait until you start feeling like the old you again.  Stay stong.

[worried878]

sounds like u have a plan!  Congrats on ur clean time..and congrats for doing aftercare..it can oly help u right now and so many resist it..we need all the help we can get

keep us posted

[donefornow]

my first major run lasted 5 years...had 6-7 different prescriptions a month..each doctor prescribing 90-120 norco.....was taking 30 Norco a day...took me 1 year to taper down to stop..was miserable the whole year...took me 6 months to function and to talk once clean.....By 9 months, had a job, girlfriend, working out, could talk...I taught college for two semesters while using 20 Norco a day...when I stopped using...could not talk, didnt want to shower, was brain dead for months!.....this time around I coming off a 3 year run with opiates. the worst I got up to this time was 1 80mg of oxy a day...I tapered down to 15 mg of methadone...then 2 mg of suboxone..then jumped..I really should have went away somewhere...Cuase doesn't make much sense for to detox myself...but was just so scared.....withdrawals well/are hell..getting a little better each day...my mind and functions seem to be coming back quicker then the first time...but still seems very slow!!! and out of the norm...I remember the first time around, I really almost went back out each day...cause each day for months I felt out of my mind...but kept going to meetings and brain finally came back...Was reading at night, laughing, working out, working, all the stuff I never fathomed I could do clean....Eventhough I remember that while I type its tough for me to remember while I go through the day and feel like **** and scared that this will last so long...Im just amazed at the number of people that feel great after day 7 or something...feel that there is something wrong with me.

[salsinator]

Evening Done - Hang in there.  W/d is different for everyone and for some it takes longer than others to start feeling better.  If you have 8 days, the major symptoms should start to improve very soon.  What kind of opaite where you taking?  How much?  If you were on a long acting opiate like methadone or suboxone, the w/d is longer, but at 8 days, you are well on your way.  You are doing the right thing by eating and getting out of bed.  Some talk about exercise and hot baths helping, even if you don't feel like it.  While I was completely detoxed after 8 days, I was not jumping to the moon, it took weeks for the energy to come back, but at least I was not jumping through my skin at that point.  Hang in there, you are nearly there and there is nothing wrong with you.  Keep posting, people on this site are awesome!

[candothis247]

oh yea, i know what you mean. it has taken me a long time to heal..... i used everyday for 3 years. I was physically ill and mentally numb..... 8 days is fantastic, hang in there, you will start feeling better soon. I think it depends on your age, the amount u used and length of use.
Keep it up.! its worth it.  =)

[donefornow]

thank you for posting...it is helping me...cause I have 8 days clean from opiates...kicking at home..feel like complete death...haven't eaten in 4-5 days...finally was able to force myself to eat a little bit today...and feel little bit better then yesterday....woke up with bad craving today from 7am-4pm....pacing around the house...legs kicking...but I wanted to thank you for posting about your appetite finally coming back and finally feeling semi ok at 60 days opiates and 30 days clean...cuase I thought there was something wrong with me for not feeling ok yet....for not eating yet...for having no reason to wake up anymore...use to wake up to use....It seems like everyone on here feels great after 4-7 days...they feel like superman...happy to be clean....But thats not me...when I use I use for a long time...I did damage i think..thought there was something wrong with me that I not feeling better yet....

[salsinator]

candothis - congratulations on your 30 days.  I am coming up on my 90 days on Thursday.  Yes, the fog does go away and I am feeling loads different where I am today vs. just a month ago.  It's great to "feel" - even though it was challenging at first, my solution was alway to pick up the pill bottle or a drink.  No longer an option.  I am proud of you and proud of myself. Keep goin!