Dating Oxycontin IV User

[Escrazy]

OK guys I need some advice.  I am dating someone that IV's oxycontin.  It scares me quite a bit.  I am the only person he has told and feel a certain sick pride in that.  Sometimes I think I should cut it loose but, I guess the question is, do you think I am helping him by being there and being someone he can be honest with, or is it just doomed to failure and am I wasting time on someone that will end up hurting me in some way or another?

By the way, he buys them illegally, so no prescription.  Takes 1 or 2 a day-highest dose possible.

[Escrazy]

Well he called last night but I didn't answer, no message though.  Uggghhh this weekend is my birthday so it kinda *****, timing wise.

You know this is such a sad reminder about how so many people are loved, maybe even by people they don't know have those feelings, and just still keep abusing themselves and forcing good people to leave them.

It seems like such a waste of the human spirit-  So for all of you guys and gals out there trying to get clean and having a hard time, remember that there are people out there who love you and want you to be OK!!!!

[KiaKaha]

Stay strong babe!!! You've now made yourself No.1 and you've made up your mind so stay with it...keep posting here and let us know what's happening and how you are. He'll probably try and tell you all sorts of stuff to make you stay but listen to your heart, stay true to yourself and run for the hills!!! Big hugs to you.XO

[Escrazy]

Well as for safety.  I have been to my doctor after he told me.  Plus, we always used condoms.  He of course said he always uses clean needles.  hmmfff, not sure how believable that is!  Anyway, I am fine thus far, and we have not been gettin' busy since on account of all of this.  As I said initially, it scared the **** outta me!

Luckily, I have never been interested in prescription drugs, nor am I now.  As a teen and young adult I tried all manner of things but wound up being one of the lucky ones that could walk away from any and all forms of drugs or alcohol..  except maybe men in pain (SIGH!), my drug of choice, lol.

I would like to wave a wand and cure everyone from whatever ails them ya know?  The strange thing about him is his candor now. He freely admits all the lengths he is going to, to get pills etc. I am kind of a question junkie, so I have asked him every question known to man about his addiction, he answers everything.

Well I have not spoken to him since yesterday, so I guess I am going through my own withdrawls-Wish me luck, I am gonna try and bow out of the relationship gracefully.  Although, I doubt I will ever not offer him my friendship.  I am just not that kinda girl!!!

[Lea7]

i tried for many years and wound up w/my own addiction. Thats my experience. My partners denial was/is tremendous. And for me, I cant stay clean around someone whose using. Again, that is me & not necessrily you. This I know; No addict will stop until they want to for themselves.

[avisg]

I agree with what every else has said the one thing that I don't think I saw anyone discuss is your health .IV drug using has a whole other set of issues sharing needles being the biggest there are many serous illness that can come for shared needles. If you are intimate with him plz see your doctor and let them know so they can  make sure you are healthy .If you ever need to talk feel free to pm me .

[Escrazy]

Thanks for your insight. You know the intimacy has already started to be affected.  He certainly seems more interested in getting his daily needs met with getting his pills then making time to spend with me.

In a way telling me, seemed to free his conscience from working to keep me. Now that I know it seems like he thinks I have accepted being a lower priority.  It is horrible, now that I see the cycle more clearly but it is really sad to see such a wonderful, kind human being just break themselves down!

I know that we have not been together long enough for our relationship to make a difference to him one way or the other, so I know it is just a matter of walking away.  ***** though......