Day 2 - Sort Of

[Sean5110]

Yesterday morning I took my last hydro and then went to start a detox program using buprenorphine (I took the two too close together and for a few hours there, it was mighty scary). But things calmed down. The clinic also gave some supplements and a couple of these came in handy last night for a pretty restful sleep: clonidine and doxepin (others were given but I didn't use any: motrin 800, flexeril and donnatal). I will go and get my second of five doses of bup this morning. By Friday, the bup doses will be done but I'll still have some of the other meds mentioned above for following days.

But here is what I want to say: I just know that now is the time to quit. period. I do not doubt that this is the moment and I have to seize onto it for all it is worth. It is true that the mental part of withdrawal is the hardest. I remember on a recent post bmac (Bill) mentioned that during the first days he was always on the brink of tears (he wasn't proud of the fact, nor am I given that I am a 37 year old man with a job and family and just can't live live on the edge of emotional gushing). But I know exactly what he was talking about and I'm there again.

It is difficult to do anything at work, and frankly, that doesn't go over well here. My body is a lead weight and theres a damp towel stuffed tight into my head. I apologize for these downer posts but this is the only place I can concretely communicate my situation to others. Thank you all so much for your support. If you are the praying type, please remember me in the coming days.

Thanks,
Sean

[Chezz]

Cincee,
I hear you on the sharing thing. That is hard.

I hope your visit goes well. Try and keep healthy and have a good time.

We'll miss you here since you will be busy.
Chezz

[Chezz]

What would I want to take em' for, a headache? I never get them.
Chezz

[CinCee]

I've got prednizone to help with the neck issue, I hope.  Doc gave me 30mg per day for 5 days.
I haven't started it yet, I'm a little scared.  It's late now, so I probably will take them in the morning as they are famous for keeping people awake.

[athena]

i just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you.Your posts are such an inspiration.I hope I can one day be at peace with myself,as you seem to be.

pixi

[hippy]

how are you today,  i was thinking maybe it would be a good idea
to have someone who can give some support , by comming over you house when your sister is there.
ya might even want to turn her onto the fourm here, im sure
you would like to see her do good by cleang up, and not useing.
peace, alway good to read you post

michael

[CinCee]

There's not much chance it will be either one.
I don't now yet if she's using or not.