Finally

[bb454]

I finally told my husband today about me abusing my prescribed vicodin. Big weight lifted but still feel like crap... Day 3.

[dominosarah]

Stay strong bb, you are doing great and with each passing day you are getting better~~sara

[bb454]

Thanks Bolts...I appreciate your messages so much..they are the only thing thats getting me through right now...thanks evrryone..

[Bolts21]

G'day bb - I hope today wasn't too shitful. You're one day closer. Had a pretty bad day myself today. I've ended up with some pretty bad peptic ulcers that were screaming for codiene today. Bugger it I used cayenne pepper - unbelievable but it kills ulcer pain. I don't know about vikes unfortunately - I don't think we get them down here - just oxys and endone at the top end. I am almost loathed to mention it but I had a great helper in the first two weeks. I used Champix - the stop smoking drug we get down here. From the first day of taking them (about day 3 or 4 of being clean)  they stopped about 80 or 90 percent of the physical cravings. They worked fantastic. I stopped them after about 2 weeks because they were knocking my ulcers around. I am not suggesting you use another drug but keep it in the back of your mind - they would be better than more vikes. I like the sound of the hylands - I bring back plenty of unisom when I get over there but I am trying to get off them too. I need at least one or two good nights sleep a week so I only use them occasionally. Ok I am raving again but thought I would give you something to read. Keep it up mate - real soon you will notice that you aren't thinking about vikes every second it might be say 10 minutes break between hunger thoughts. The ten minutes will become half hours and hours really quickly and then you are home and hosed. Normal functionality is real close. Good luck for tomorrow.

Bolts

[bb454]

Do you think withdrawal is the same coming off of 6 to 8 vicodin...as it is someone coming off of 20 or 30. I know 6 to 8 is bad but didnt think I would feel this bad! Damn

[bb454]

Lots of crying today..as I look around at my life and see how everyone around me can function in life without the pills..how can this change ypu so much? I functioned for years without myself practically my whole life. Im trying to stay positive I really am.

[bb454]

Thank you bolts..your post made me tear up..i have to work with the public and im finding it hard to even have conversations without my pills..i was taking between 6 to 8 vicodin a day. I have altered my personality with this $hit..it was prescribed by a doc but doesnt make it better..i was taking two at a time instead of one. ..im scared what the rest of this day will bring :(