Finally

[bb454]

I finally told my husband today about me abusing my prescribed vicodin. Big weight lifted but still feel like crap... Day 3.

[Bolts21]

It WILL get better - I know how hard it is and what you are going thru. I have been clean for over a month now after over 20 years of codiene abuse (bucket loads of the crap daily) - we can buy the rubbish over the counter in Australia. Apart from the health benefits just the feeling of freedom makes every bit of pain worthwhile (eventually). I come to the US once or twice a year and it is going to be great not having to bring in 200 x 15mg of codiene for a weeks visit. I can look the customs guys in the eyes with confidence now. I am rambling but I just want to reassure you that there are a bunch of people all around the world behind you because they are going through the same or similar stuff. Also rest assured there is no stigma to addiction - I am a University Proffesor with a PhD in Engineering - I've been told I should have been smarter - suppose that is true but it can bite anyone on the bum. (typical Aussie crassness sry). Keep going - stare in the mirror and tell yourself you will beat it - I am rooting for you (that means something else down here but this isn't the place to explain it - laugh). This was a bit long but I wanted to share my experiences - good luck - I will check back over the coming days.

Bolts

[bb454]

Thanks Minn..i took 4 hylands melts last night and a xanex and slept about 6 hours..woke up extremely anxious and nauseated..ugh..god get me through this day! Appreciate everyones support!!

[minn66]

Hi bb, just wanted to offer encouragement and support. I remember those early days of detox well. I'm glad you found this site. I wasn't prepared when I quit. I didn't know about the vitamins and supplements, the only thing I took until day 4 was a multivitamin and Immodium. Keep going, hun, take it as it comes. I'm thinking of you today.

Hugs and prayers,

Minn

[bb454]

For the record hylands restful legs have been a god send...

[Pat1956100]

Lack of sleep is something we are going to have to accept for awhile.  Don't stay in bed and toss and turn.  It's too frustrating. Watch tv or get on the computer.  I know it is really awful.  I hate it.  

[bb454]

930... Of day 3... Body hurts like I have been run over by a truck. Looking forward to a long restless night ahead. I have Ambien and wonfer if it will make me sleep through the restlrss legs which drive me INSANE. I have xanex too..which I will never abuse because I hate that tired sluggish feeling. Vicodin game me so much energy..then turned on me. F'n devil.pills.