Hi everyone can you help me get through this ?

[Readytogetbetta]

Day 1 of CT from OC about 80mg's a day for several months///down to 40 mg on last 2 days.  I know HELL ON EARTH is coming.

Can I post here to get support?  How do I do this with support from this awesome community?

Hell is coming....argggh

I want to be clean so bad and be a better father to my young kids and a beter husband.  Family has no idea.  Told them the flu is coming! But I will need someone to talk to!

This is gonna suck isnt it? ARRGH!

[freedom007]

Hey all...just wanted to make sure that this Post stays current.

I went christmas shopping today...and had money to do it!!  What a friggin treat...I loved every second of it.  I am so looking forward to seeing my kids faces as they open up their gifts.  I of course, have already given them, and myself, the best gift that I could have this year.  A sober Dad!!

I hope this finds everyone doing well...drop a line and keep inspiring!!

Love and best to all!!

Free

[MrClean2009]

Hey Free....good call on the vitamins et al.  I went out and spent $60 on stuff from the Thomas recipe....took all the recommended doses for 2 days during detox.  I couldn't tell a difference so I abandoned them.  I have a multi-vitamin sitting on my sink to remind me to take them, but somehow I overlook those too.  

After reading LeighAnn's comment about producing brain chemicals naturally, I wonder if there are supplements that we should be taking to encourage that re-birth? I don't mind taking something (clearly!), but I'm not interested in taking it unnecessarily.  That is, will the body heal itself and I just need to be patient, continue working out and allow normal processes to transpire over a period of time? Conversely, could a supplement shorten the healing process?  I welcome any thoughts...

It feels good to say "day 22".....no depression today...in many long meetings for work....anyone notice how you can pay attention for long periods of time now without zoning out?  I had the most boring 4 hour meeting today, but was able to stay alert and actually participate beyond the first half hour....

While we and so many others have referred to "getting our life back", you can't comprehend all of the things that you are missing, you just know that it isn't the same...when you are sober, so many little things come back to you...one at a time, over time.....it's like it's not all revealed at once, but each day there is something different but yet somehow familiar to you. I always see people walking their dogs in my neighborhood and I used to think, "why would anyone waste time doing that?"....now I think, "what a great way to get out and experience the cool winter air!"...am I making any sense to you?  CAN I GET A WITNESS?!?!?!   hahahahaha....

Best to my friends.....(hey Ready....how you doin? great to hear from you!)
Clean

[freedom007]

oh yeah...and a little advice...the recommendations for vitamins and minerals and amino acids are very hard to manage.  I have found that a Protein shake from GNC works wonders and contains all the suggested stuff.  Thought i'd pass is along.

[freedom007]

Well, Mr Clean...you have walked right into my Wheel House.  Anxiety and Depression is the reason that I starting taking these pills in the first place.  My wife always asks me..."what do they make you feel that is so special."  My response is simple...it's what they DON'T make me feel that is what makes them so addictive...for me.  But as we all know...that eventually leads to no feelings at all...not good.

Feelings...even bad ones are good.  It's just normal life.  The best part about being clean is that you can fight them and overcome them and feel great in winning the battle.  I think we are all realizing that although the week of detox was hell...it is but a small part of the battle.  The hardest part will come when we feel great and need to make the right decisions.

Things are good here...going through the ups and downs of life.  T-Giving was amazing...as it always is!!  Looking forward to Christmas...and actually having money to spoil my kids instead of trying to find excuses to tell my wife of why we have no money.

Stay strong my friends...we will win this together...

[LeighAnn55]

I am so with you Clean. I know exactly what you are talking about. Now that I'm clean, it's like I'm having to relearn to live. I mostly have cravings when I'm bored or tired (no energy). I, too, often think, well...now maybe I could handle it and just use the pills for when I need them, and I wouldn't let myself get back to where I depended on them all the time...but I know it's all a lie.
That's why I keep coming to this board. It helps me to know that I am not alone in having these crazy feelings. I wonder how long it takes for our brain to produce a normal amount of dopamine on it's on. I'm sure it will be a while. I'm trying to stay true to myself, and am not expecting myself to be 100% until at least 6 months clean.
Keep in touch! Stay strong!
3 weeks and 1 day clean

[Readytogetbetta]

my god Clean that was soooo perfectly said!!!  We all go thru those feelings!  It isnt easy but staying STRONG is so rewarding!  I too have had such dreams but then I look at my kids and realize how important it is what I did and to come this far. NO WAY I am gonna throw it all away for a 15 minute buzz. NO WAY!!!!!

And the next day is ALWAYS better :)

Keep posting!  Love ya man!

Ready!