Hi everyone can you help me get through this ?

[Readytogetbetta]

Day 1 of CT from OC about 80mg's a day for several months///down to 40 mg on last 2 days.  I know HELL ON EARTH is coming.

Can I post here to get support?  How do I do this with support from this awesome community?

Hell is coming....argggh

I want to be clean so bad and be a better father to my young kids and a beter husband.  Family has no idea.  Told them the flu is coming! But I will need someone to talk to!

This is gonna suck isnt it? ARRGH!

[MrClean2009]

Hi all!
  Hope that everyone had a pleasant holiday!  Mine was okay (don't care for the inlaws much), but was a fun weekend for the most part...boy did it go by fast!  It is difficult for me to post on weekends, so I hope that you all understand.  

Today is day 21 for me....3 weeks!  It was weird that on days 3-5, I didn't think I would ever use again....day 10 or so, I didn't "feel" like using, but my mind started to tell me that maybe I would be okay now. I could handle just a little bit.....right?  Truth is, I can't...none of us can.  The urge went away, and I haven't had a strong urge since.  That said, I remember many times dreaming of scoring pills while I was using. That all went away the day I quit.  The last two nights however, I have had those same dreams...scoring...weird huh?

A word of encouragement......the best that I feel is usually after a workout, walk or some sort of physical activity.  I have had bouts of depression the last 2 weeks....some days I don't feel real happy (guess that is PAWS?).  This really surprised me, I have never felt like this before.  Maybe it is partly because most of my emotions have been masked for so long...not sure.

I know that I have said this many times, but it bears repeating....I didn't think I could do this....it seemed too difficult.  Even some days now feel difficult, but when I think about myself then vs. now, there is no comparison.  Life isn't always about springing out of bed each morning with a huge smile, but it is about being able to look in the mirror as you brush your teeth and be happy with who you see. For me, there has been nothing so rewarding as looking in the mirror...I don't mean from a vanity perspective....but really looking into your own eyes...your soul....realizing that what you have been through was real, is part of who you are, but your past doesn't have to dictate your future.....

best....
Clean

[Readytogetbetta]

Hey everyone!  Sorry its been a while snce I checked in!  Was out of town for T Giving and have band rehearsal today for an Xmas gig we just booked :)

Wanted to let everyone know I will be checking in more often now the crazy holidays are over and need an update from all my dear friends!  I hope everyone is still living the REAL LIFE! Check in with your friend Ready! SOOO great to hear from LeighAnn too! WWOWO thats my GIRL!  So lets all take a couple minutes and let me know how you are doing in the club :)  Love u guys!!!

Sunshinegal we WILL BE HERE FOR YOU!!!!

Will be back soon after band practice :) Music is going to sound so different now I am playing it "clean"...gonna be COOL! :)

MUCH LOVE!!!!!

Ready!

[sunshinegal76]

Hi guys!!! Hope everybody had a wonderful Thanksgiving!! Great to hear from those who haven't posted in a while :) So, I have chosen my quit date: Dec 9th. Gonna be home for a week then so I can just take care of myself, and by that time I will have all my business taken care of so I won't be stressing on that. To be honest it's going to be difficult not to just freely "enjoy" until then. I have gone back up, WAS down to 1/day. I know I have to taper.. I taper down only to go back up everytime!! That has been my pattern. Mainly, I have so much more motivation with the pills -- that is by far my biggest scare. I just lay around waiting for the sky to fall only too often when I have cut down. My BF knows and is not happy with my current state so he is a big motivator to quit now, and I am going back to some hardcore college classes in January so gotta have my head screwed on straight!!  :o) I have to say that I know I am a tough cookie and I can do it. These evil pills are tough too, so we gotta be tougher!! So I will taper as much as I can and then jump dammit! I am telling you all for accountability. I am scared and like a kid "don't wannnnnna" - but this is life and it's time to grow up!!

Thank you Freedom, and Clean for your kind words and inspiration. Can't thank you enough. Great to hear you are staying strong Leigh Ann. Look forward to hearing from you guys soon :) And thank you so much for keeping this thread going!! Love to you all!

[1DayAtTime]

I am an recovering drug "Addict" the drug of choice Roxy's. Im a 23 year old mother of two and a wife, and the only thing i had ever done befor was smoke pot, "whice i hadnt dont in years". But 6 months ago, i was introduced to Roxys. It was offered and i did it, i snorted it up my nose. I had never done anything up my nose. But it felt so good "The High", its amazing...FOR A WHILE..but it starts taking over..slowly. I thought i had the control and i could stop at anytime, but it had control over me, i couldnt think of anything else but getting money to buy drugs..its sad. But i was lucky My husband saw that i needed help..and he plained an intervention. and i went to a rehab. needless to say Im clean 28 days today, and it was really hard the first 2 weeks, but its getting easyer every day. Im not better, ill always think about it, and at time's i really want it, but i no i cant lose myself again to the addict inside. I hope God blesses me enough to stay clean. Im proud of myself so far but it is a day to day struggle. I hope i have helped someone, out there.  

[bigoc1655]

it to are coming off oxy80mg 2 to 3 a day 2night is my first night of withdrawl im doin okay can i went and got some  xanax to help me get through i know your not suppose to substitute one drug 4 another but it wuill help with the w/d

[LeighAnn55]

I'm still here. I hope everyone is just eating turkey and left overs. I'm still clean!!! Can't say I haven't been tempted, but I can say I resisted every temptation.

I hope everyone checks in soon.

Keep up the good clean life Tee and Freedom! <3