people can "What if" themselves into relapsing, into never trying, and some can even "what if" themselves and lose their life over it...this can get way scary and some get in way dep...so deep it is scary...I feel lucky to have never gone any further than I have..perhaps the doctors in my area are very stingy with narcs compared to other areas/and it is probably a good thing in a way for me...I have a friend who is in so deep I wonder sometimes when I do not hear from him that he has overdosed...so deep and "what iffing" about whether sub can even cover this large amount of narcotic..and I dont know what to say...I dont know how to help I guess as having never been this deep..i can not truly feel the pain...but I do know I will always care about this person and I believe they can get their act together..."what iffing" can tie people's hands and put them at a stand still
It really is true..that managing only one day at a time and not worrying about what i will do tomorrow helps...if u think..how can I never use again? or what if i get hurt and need meds? or what if i never get my nrg back? what if's can talk people outa trying in the first place
I've relapsed several times...prob like 2-3 times. Once, being clean for 30 days, then was hospitalized for something and ended up on the pills again. I think if it wasn't for me being hospitalized, I could've made it.
This time, I really feel it different. Aside from my wife knowing and being my Guardian Angel, I feel different. I really want my life, focus and natural happiness back.
I'm sure there will be days of cravings and days where i may thnk, hmm, maybe 1 might not hurt, but this time, i hope, I will be strong enough to say, not this time.
I too use the one day at a time rule...focus on the positive and understand that the negative is short term...
Sure I have the rest of my life to go...But I'm not going back. so for me the first time is the charm!
Five years ago I quit a Fentanyl/Oxy/Vic addiction cold turkey on the first try and never looked back - was clean for 3 years and then after I had my daughter, I started on the pain meds again and I just can't stay clean. I'm on day 3 again and I'll never stop trying to quit for good. I do believe the percentage is that low. The statistics my doc throws at me week after week are astounding and also intimidating (for lack of a better word, can't think straight), sometimes makes me think I can't get this done. This time, instead of just quitting drugs, I find that I have to change a lot of other things in my life as well. I feel like I go to war every single day.
i try to focus on not using one day at a time, it helps with the anxiety of "what if i relaspe" or how many days i have clean
i have had my share of relapeses and i can tell you that i learned something each time