I was over 2 years clean and had a relapse ,then another, and another one and so on, I just like so many believed that I could control it this time and didn't. I first heard that statistic when I quit in 06' and didn't believe it; I was told aftercare raises that percentage greatly. I thought I could be stronger than any Stat and do it by myself but once again I am 38 days clean and rethinking that statement. Reading everyone's stories helps, makes you feel not alone. I did hear and do believe each time we quit and relapse we are taking steps in the right direction, it is us learning how to deal with our addictions and overcoming them. The fact that only 3% remain clean is an interesting stat, sobriety lasts a lifetime, we have to always be aware that there is a chance of going back and take steps to fight like hell to never use again...Besides, who ever was able to hit a homerun the first time up to the plate? We all need a little practice to get it right!
i try to focus on not using one day at a time, it helps with the anxiety of "what if i relaspe" or how many days i have clean
i have had my share of relapeses and i can tell you that i learned something each time
Five years ago I quit a Fentanyl/Oxy/Vic addiction cold turkey on the first try and never looked back - was clean for 3 years and then after I had my daughter, I started on the pain meds again and I just can't stay clean. I'm on day 3 again and I'll never stop trying to quit for good. I do believe the percentage is that low. The statistics my doc throws at me week after week are astounding and also intimidating (for lack of a better word, can't think straight), sometimes makes me think I can't get this done. This time, instead of just quitting drugs, I find that I have to change a lot of other things in my life as well. I feel like I go to war every single day.
Sure I have the rest of my life to go...But I'm not going back. so for me the first time is the charm!
I've relapsed several times...prob like 2-3 times. Once, being clean for 30 days, then was hospitalized for something and ended up on the pills again. I think if it wasn't for me being hospitalized, I could've made it.
This time, I really feel it different. Aside from my wife knowing and being my Guardian Angel, I feel different. I really want my life, focus and natural happiness back.
I'm sure there will be days of cravings and days where i may thnk, hmm, maybe 1 might not hurt, but this time, i hope, I will be strong enough to say, not this time.
I too use the one day at a time rule...focus on the positive and understand that the negative is short term...
It really is true..that managing only one day at a time and not worrying about what i will do tomorrow helps...if u think..how can I never use again? or what if i get hurt and need meds? or what if i never get my nrg back? what if's can talk people outa trying in the first place