How much we have changed!

[bandnmom]

How long has it been since you looked back at your 1st post here? I have seen this question b4 but with all the newbies here I think its interesting.
I just looked mine up and boy have i changed. Its hard to believe how much i have changed in such a short amount of time compared to how long i was an addict. I know, I know i will always be an addict.. Hello my name is Jenny and I am an addict. HaHa!!! Anyways, I feel i have grown and become the strong person that i use to be before the pills.
This place is the best and so are all of you!!
Look back to your first post and tell me what you see!!

[worried878]

I had to hit 375 boxes to get to my first post!  I have come to the conclusion that I am addicted to posting...It was insteresting to read back and see how scared I was...there must be an easier way to get to the beginning that clicking on the arrow over and over?  Like can you put in a date and search it

[bandnmom]

11 weeks is great! Congrats

[taekwondo_fighter]

yeah, i would say i look at my first post once a week...
i was a mess...  i cant believe how far i've come..  even though my cravings are very strong lately, i havent given in yet...  i'm over 11 weeks now..

[bandnmom]

to funny Gizzy and well said!!

[gizzy32]

i looked at my first entry on here last week, lol. came on here the day i was a month clean still wondering how the hel l it was possible to stay clean. still felt like **** and i am so dumb on computers i posted 3 times before it showed up. i knew the first day here this place was a great support group and haven't looked back. we have come a long way and for those that have stayed clean, hold your heads high, for me getting off coke and my life back is by far my biggest accomplisment.

[troubleinohio]

i dont need to go back and  look at it..i already know what it says. "Im not an addict, blah blah blah, I NEED my pain meds for legit medical problems, Im just scared and dont want to go to jail, but i want my vicodins still...blah blahl blah "  LOL   @@ what a fool i was

[bandnmom]

sorry...i miss -read your comment last night. I guess i was more tired than i thought!! Fladdict told you how though

[bandnmom]

I hope you are taking care of yourself. I can't even imagine what you are going threw. I lost my Uncle last week and I am having a hard time with that. If you ever need anything let me know. I really mean that.

[Mikeinthesouth]

way to scared to look back now. I will later.

[Flutterby111]

HI Band, It's been a while.....I can't even look at this point.  Some tragic things have taken place.  But I wanted to say hi.  I'm glad you have changed for the better, You are a good woman.  Peace.

[FLaddict]

I did that earlier tonight actually.... I have over 1100 pages of posts!!!!! There are 6 posts per page!!!!  I can believe I typed that many times... but that means that I reached out to alot of people too.. which is a good thing :)


Ps Worried go to your profile and go to Posts and click back til you get to your first one..
Pss  Nauty I am gonna look back and read ours..LOL

[bandnmom]

I guess you can call it a fake confidence. I was so scared and fragile. I can rememeber sitting there writing it. I always want everyone to think i am a strong person so when i was dealing with this ,basically alone ,i was so scared and weak. Today i am confident and strong and able!!
Geez i sound like a self help tape! LOL!!

[worried878]

How do u look at ur first post on here?

[NautyOne]

I am afraid to look at my first post.......I wont.

Nauty........

[bandnmom]

I totally agree. The way people "speak" you can tell how they have grown, changed and learned in this sh**ty process. But it is so worth it!! Look at OPI!! LMAO
Sorry Opi if you read this, it is actually a great compliment as i have told you this b4. You have changed so much, not your sense of humor (Thank god), but you as a person!!

[GoingToMakeIt]

Do I really want to look back? lol  It is also good to see each other grow and change as we recover.