I jumped off methadone today!!!!!

[Lisa034]

For all of you that know my story, I did not dose today,  as of yesterday I was at 10mgs and I just made up my mind last night that I am just so so so so done!!!!! So here I go, no more done for me.  Today is just my first day so I guess I will see what days 3,4,5 or 10 have in store for me.  I have to belive that it will be the same as my taper was.  I dropped 20mgs just a few weeks ago and I am thinking that it should not be any different then how I felt then.   For those new comers that do not know my story,  I have been tapering off of methadone for the last 6 weeks or so.  I want to say Thank you so much to all that have been my rock thru this all.  Yall know who you are!!!!  I want everybody to know it can be done.  So, I will see what is gonna happen over the next few days or so.  

Lots of Love
Lisa034
Jacksonville,FL

[emwave]

Good luck -- we are all proud of you!  I know you tapered quite quickly -- can you give me a quick summary of what dose you were at and how much you dropped each week?  Please keep us posted over the next few weeks.  Are you using the amino acid protocol to help with any PAWS?  Again, good luck and thanks for sharing -- you've been ann inspiration to many.

[salsinator]

Congratulations Lisa, keep is posted on your progress. Good luck! You can do it

[kolo13]

Hooray Lisa,  I'm proud of you. It's been a while, but when I quit methadone I remember feeling better after the jump than anytime during the taper. Good luck.

[Beccabeccalynn]

Good luck I will pray for you. Plz keep us informed of how you are feeling both mentally and physically. This is totally something you can do

[gnarly_1]

YESSSSSSSS ....YOU GO GIRL....im so happy for you...your free of the liquid handcuffs....well your body knows what withdrawals are all about if youve been tapering
like you have ....it really shouldn't be anny worst then the withdrawals going thew tapering...it just sorta last longer like 7 days insted of 4...thats how it was for me
you have got to have set a record in quick tapering off this stuff..im so proud of you
it had to been a grind but with your will and perseverance you have done it...and will
continue to do it...you want it bad and thats what it takes .the next few days will
be a bit tuff....but trust in god...and his grace ...he will never give you more then you can bear....youll come out fine....use your symptoms to strengthen your resolve...remember this "nothing is going to control me" and just be "ok without
being ok" for a wile...each day that goes by will be closer to the end and the end will be soon...your symptoms will pass with time...my first week was tuff but VERY DOABLE....and the second week although the symptoms still seamed to linger around a bit ..they are much less worst then the first week...today I have 3 weeks clean...I still get evening anxiety but its much less worst now then it was when I was tapering or just starting out clean...YOU CAN DO THIS....hang tuff girlee...message me if I can be of anny help at all...a hot bath helps the symptoms alot and so does
praying....god helps those that call on him...good luck and god bless..I will keep you in my prayers....Gnarly    

[avisg]

good luck ,You can do it just lean on your support system when things get hard :)
avis

[Lisa034]

OMG,  I just woke up and I feel like holy ****!!!!! This is the first time in a long long long time I have felt anything.  The tears are flowing like a river.  I spoke loud and clear in my NA meeting today because I am scared as hell and now I am way,.....out of my comfort zone.  A lady told me today that my tears were telling the story that I was just unable at this time to confess out of my mouth.  I guess that is true!!!  I guess now the real work begins.  

Sending my love
Lisa034
Jacksonville,FL

BTW Gnarly you dont even know what your words mean to me    Sometimes that is all that keeps me going!!!!

[Holliee]

I am so very proud of you and I would say that your scared right now but remember we are her for you all of us and if you need pm feel free to honey I am here when ever you need me. You can do this stay strong and look to Lord for help through this. Keep us posted.
Holliee

[seahorse1963]

Rock on lady...remember this too shall pass and it does :) Godspeed!!!

[Lisa034]

Ok here I am today    I woke up again and I feel just soooo dang tired but cant sleep   I mean not for any good period of time.  I was at 110mgs about 2 mths ago and Saturday was my last dose at 10mgs,  In the last two months I never had any physical withdrawl.  One time I went from 30mgs to 10mgs and still felt nonthing.  But I do have to say  Holy **** because the withdrawl is here for me now.  I am just so mentaly sick of everything.  Why is everything so hard just everything.  I can not stop crying and I am growing very tired of that.  Oh my god if I can just hang in and get thru today I know that tomorrow will be better, but it is so hard just to see past the here and now.  In some sick way,  I do belive that maybe It did not have to be this hard and maybe I wanted to feel the pain.  I dont know anything anymore.  All my thoughts are racing.  Why did I do this?  How could I have let this happen to me and everybody around me?  I dont even know what I am saying.
Lisa

[Holliee]

hey hon hang on and stay strong you can do this an I am so very proud of you. Message me if you need.

[Lisa034]

Thanks for your support girl I really appericate it.   I am just having a hard time with this.  I really dont understand how I can go from 110mg down to 10mg and feel nonthing.  So I just jump from 10mgs after being on it for 6 days and i feel like this.  Wow   Really off only 10mg  thats like one pill.  I just have a hard time wraping my head around that one.  I used to take about 60 pills in one day and I would see people taking one pill a day and I used to think wow if I could only take one pill I would just stop.  So how in the hell is this little 10mgs kicking my ***

Lisa034

[jstntime]

First off, I am so happy for you Lisa.

Did you ever go down the steps and think there was only one left only to realize there were a few of them left????  It really ***** but it is very much like that first step off "your ride".

You know you're going to fall but that is little comfort when it is happening.  It takes others to help you up and point out a few things sometimes.  Things like it doesn't last forever, and to make sure you keep busy.

Most important though is that you realize there is probably nobody on this entire site that we would like to see succeed at this more than YOU.

You have helped so many Lisa.  I know this because I am one of them.   It's your turn to join this club.  It's going to hurt to get your membership card but the liberty it will give you will make your next week seem like small payment.

You do have to want it and I pray that you do.  

We're proud of Lisa and we are pulling so hard for you,
Godspeed,

bob

[seahorse1963]

It gets better, your past the hardest part...this bites I know but it can be beat and like someone said we are pulling for you..dig deep down inside of you and keep up the great work..turn to God and He will help..get up and do something, anything, put on music, dance, pace, go for a walk or bike ride anything!!!  Hot bath, post, keep your mind off of this...your doing great!!!!!!!!!!  We are proud of you but Gods delights in the victories :)

[bbq33]

4 years I was on 30mg Methadone a day for my back pain. It finally quit working. It is only suppose to stay in your body for about 4 or 5 days. I tapered off 10mg per week and had only very slight side effects. A little nausia and insomnia. Felt a little tired. A little diarrea. Nothing to worry about. It was pretty easy. I took some safe herbs. 1,200mg Valerian (or Valerian Root) three times a day. It calms things down. 3mg Melatonin long acting 20 minutes before bed. I'm not sure if these herbs helped but they can't hurt.
Lisa034, congrads on making the decision to get off the stuff. (no more constipation). I feel like I am normal again!
bbq33

[NorcoQueenoftheUniverse]

Hey Honey.. You CAN do this!  Although I know nothing about methadone withdrawl I just FEEL in my HEART that you are a STRONG PERSON and can do THIS!

God Speed to you... my dear...

Much LOVE and MANY PRAYERS!
NorcoQueen

[kolo13]

Hi Lisa, I hope you are doing alright today. I'm thinking of you and trying to send you a little energy through the ether.

[leeisgettingclean]

lisa sweetie we are all here for you! stay strong...you can do this

[gnarly_1]

hey girlee....well you took the plunge ...the sharks dont look as menacing from up
on the rail...but now you have to swim with them...just remember your not in the
ocean alone...god is beside you....he will take care of you and get you thew this and you wont get eaten by a shark...today  you celebrate your first day clean YOU HAVE DONE IT.
you may be struggling and holding on by a thread...but your still holding on
and where all proud of you..IM  PROUD OF YOU...your one day closer to the rest of your life...and these withdrawals you feel will only be a memory ...hang tuff you have what it takes....right now my heart goes out to you...I know how it feels to be in withdrawals..in a word it sux..but again...use your symptoms to strengthen your
resolve to fight..you got to want it bad and I know you want it bad AND YOU WILL MAKE IT....one day at a time ..dont let your fear scare you into submittion let go
of it...give it to god and let him Cary the burden ..I know this all sound so ez but in realty it can be hard to apply ...but remember your mind is your biggest asset and if you can at least try to stay positive..as hard as it might seam...it does help ....
keep posting there are alot of people here who care and like myself will do
whatever we can to eaze your pain..good luck and god bless...Gnarly  
  

[kiylen]

Lisa, I'm glad to hear from you but so sorry for what you're feeling.  I went through some major withdrawals this weekend when I tapered (now at 35) and it almost got the best of me.  You are sooo strong Lisa.  You have been there for me numerous times and have been one of my closest friends.  You are in my prayers.  I'm so scared because I've been through this before and it's coming up again here in a few weeks but I know, and you know, that everyone on here cares and they are here to help.  It will pass.  And yes, it will seem like a lot longer than it really is but you are a determined, willful person and you deserve this.  I know there is not much I can say to make the pain go away but I really hurt for you.  Please know you haven't worked this hard for nothing.  Keep looking upward to God and He WILL listen to you.  He knows what's in your heart and what has been all along.  I care about you a lot from talking with you so much and I could just cry knowing what you're feeling.  Please message me if you feel like it, I know all about everything that goes along with this and you know you can tell me anything.  I'm praying for you now Lisa.  Don't give up.  We're all here until the end.

[rafe44]

Im detoxing off Subs right now myself, so lets do it together girl. Lets leave this hell behind us once again.

[gnarly_1]

hey girlee it 10.48 and I was thinking of you so I thought id post to you
I hope you get some sleep....anny is good I know it can be hard...spent a few sleepless
nights myself...the main reason im writing this is during the evening and night
my withdrawals got worst...its 3 weeks clean for me and I still get hit with night anxiety
I just want to incorage you to hang in there till morning it will come and with it some
relief of the withdrawals....it would for me...again it a good time to pull close to god
just talk to him and tell him how you feel....he is a loving god and only wants the best for you...I hope you dont read this till morning...but I wrote it for you if you do wind up
desperate at 3 in the morning....your friend ..Gnarly  

[Lisa034]

Thank you soooo much for everything.  This worst part for me is now   Its 7am where I am and I am alone and my whole body hurts.  I did pray to god this morning.  I hope I can make it just thru today,  I dont know  I am just soooo tired, physically, and mentaly.  
OHHH GOD JUST LET ME GET THRU TODAY!!!!

Lisa034
Jacksonville,FL

[mr.lucky66]

You can do this. It may not be easy but a slow taper isn't any easier and you are at the jumpimg off point of 0 mg. of methadone that so many methadoninans try to avoid or pospone. The 12 step support is good and trust God! and have faith. I've done in many times even faster and it's doable. Do you have any support meds, clonidine etc? if not it's okay too. all the best