I just can not quit, feel like it is taking over my life

[divorceddruggie]

I have been addicted to oxys for a few years, I have tried to quit a few times, cold turkey, through detox, even tried lowering my dosage, I feel like this is taking overmy life and job, I don't know what to do, It gets worst each and every day, my tolerance is up to 10 80's a day, I do not want methadone, as I beleive it is swapping one drug for another, nothing against methadone sounds great but just not for me, I need suggestions or advice on how i can get this done, I do want to quit, just have run out of ideas

[Emily_MHManager]

Hi everyone -

Please note that we can not allow tapering schedules to be posted.  We can't possibly know a person's entire medical history, and tapering may exacerbate some medical conditions, and a person may have an underlying condition they aren't yet aware of.

This is noted in the Posting Guidelines, so please check those out.  They are at the top of the forum, first thread listed, "Welcome, Please read before posting".  http://www.medhelp.org/posts/Addiction-Substance-Abuse/WELCOME-PLEASE-READ-BEFORE-POSTING--/show/1051807

Thanks,
Emily

[divorceddruggie]

Well Good Morning

   I asked someone in message this question, so I will post it here also and see if I can get an aswer from several people, I can and do snort 2 80mg oxys and orally take 4 2mg Valium and sleep , but I cannot sleep more than 6-7 hours, and when I wake up I am sick, and I do not mean just feel ill, I am sick, I would think that taking the Valium and the oxy's I could get more than 6-7 hours of sleep. Durring the day, if i am not doing much at work I can go a few hours with none, If I am running around I use more, So I have noticed that the more excercise I do the shorter they stay in my system, however when I am sleeping I am doing nothing, so why not last 8-10 hours?
  I understand I need to take it slow and will, as i do not like feeling sick at all, so I will do each drop by 1 a week, maybe 2 weeks, I figure betweeen 10-20 weeks I should have my tolerance lowered so withdrawls are not so bad, I hope, I read the post above saying 2 is still alot , so should I continue and drop to 2 for a week or so?
  I will keep posting and let everyone know how it is working for me, and get any questions answered I may have, I am glad this site is still running and has people at it, as I mentioned I have checked a few sites and alot don't seem to work or don't have anyone manning it anymore, so thanks

[vicki595]

Yes!!   I agree...your plan sounds very good!  Just go slow...that's really the trick and jumping off at two is still 160mg so you'll just have to see how that goes...that would be a good time to take a week off from work!

Definitely keep posting and we'll do what we can to help. I'll say it again: Don't completely rule out seeing a doctor about this..just think about it some more...

[ImDONENoMore]

Okay - here we go!!

divorceddruggie -  try to keep your expectations in check for feeling better for a while.  Knowing what to expect can help a lot right now.  Go slow with the process and allow your body to adjust with each drop.  Vicki's right - it's not a race and you want to succeed so that means doing the taper properly and also realizing that you're not going to feel so great.  But it's SO worth it you'll see.  Life without drugs is a million times better than on them.  So stay strong and keep posting - this place will be of great support to you.

Good luck to you!  p.s. and your plan sounds good to me as far as making the drop before the weekends - it will be good to have that extra time to go easy on yourself.

[divorceddruggie]

I am thinking I may drop 1 a week for a couple weeks, then another for a week, and keep dropping 1 every week till I was down to 5, but you say 5 is still really high so I may wait till I am down to 2 a day then try it, I can have a long weekend each weekend if I wish, just work 4 10's or 12's, give me my 40 and overtime if I want it. So I can do the drop on Fridays and give myself 3 days to get used to it, if that will work? I can appreciate that no one can give me a taper plan but can someone tell me if my plan will work or not, based on other people as I realize everyone is different. As for seeing a doctor that isn't an option, and none of my friends know I have this problem, nor do my parents. I will post as often as possible for feedback and post how I feel, maybe it will let others know whats it's like for me, Hace a nice evening,

[vicki595]

Hi!  You can do this,it won't be easy but it wasn't for any of us and there are many stories here...it's not totally horrible either!!   You just need to get going!!

Your taper plan sounds good BUT I'd drop ONE not TWO and wait a week,see how you feel,and drop another. It's a very high dose so you need to go very,very slowly and in small amounts. That's the secret to tapering.  We can't provide a specific plan on the forum but we can tell you to be prudent. It's not a race, go slow and easy and don't jump off at 5, that's still too high.  I really need to stress how important it is to see a doctor for this. A doctor can support you medically and keep an eye on your blood pressure,etc...there are also meds that will help the process. Perhaps you can see a new doctor? Just for this?

You also need to get in to some kind of recovery program,see a therapist,something!! It's important to have the support face to face!

Stay in touch and just go easy!!