I know you say you don't judge.....

[mamaamw]

I've lied. Again. It's a vicious cycle. I'm so embarrassed and ashamed. I went 21 days and broke down. Called the dr for the script and that was history. Took 120 hydros in 11 days. I honestly thought I had it nipped in the bud this last time. I honestly thought that was it. I feel like such a failure. Now, I get to look forward to my dreaded withdrawals that I KNOW are coming! I know I have to want it enough... At times I do. Then something happens and I feel I need the pills. I need for it to end once and for all! I said it last time too. But I'm truly wanting to stop this cycle!!! I just took the last one and now it's time for hell to begin. Please God don't lecture. I've kicked myself enough!!!!!

[tooter212]

Hippise , we all need to hear that. God Bless you

[hlpplse]

Mamaamw, I was right where you were 23 days ago, I had 56 days clean and the pain and the ANXIETY was so bad I just gave up. It is very humbling to have to come back and start again but I did and you can to, this time I have enlisted the support and have an aftercare plan. I have realized that I cannot do this alone and it is only by the Grace of God that I have come this far. Turn it over to the Lord, and let him help you in your struggles, reach out for support from others and when you are tempted pray and reach . I have also stumbled as everyone does but I rise up and try again and have faith that this time I will succeed, you can do this my friend!!! God Bless

[tooter212]

mamaamw I know what your going through !!!!!!!!! I was in so much pain I didn't think I could go on!! I prayed and prayed for the Lord to take away my pain for a month. And finely he answered me in thought. I kept thinking what could I do with the Lords help. Finely it came to me. Real simple. Turn the stimulator way down. That did it. I was afraid I was going to have to get back on the hydrocodone. But I just kept praying and listening and wow He came through!!!!!!! again. I know this is long but just hang in there and do what you know you should do and ask the Lord to do the rest!!!!!! God Bless you and comfort you.

[Sonrissa]

Try not to clock watch. Keep yourself and your mind busy. Maybe get outside and breathe some fresh air. Watch something funny on TV, read a good book, etc..

Great job in telling your doctor. That should be a weight lifted off you. Hang in there!

[msdelight]

Every second, every minute, every hour just choose life.

[BearsFan1966]

take it one hour at a time, one minute at a time. we are here for you and to support you!