I need a good support group

[swagger39]

Its hard goin this alone. Im soon going to be weening from klonapin from 2mg a day at twice a day for a lot of years. I have this beer drinking addiction going on at the same time , and that is usually after I get off work at midnight, its kind of like a wherewolf thing, I only indulge at night and hate myself the next day. Both these addictions escalated after I went off on my boss threw my badge and keys at him and walked out after 8 yrs from the best job I ever had and that was in 2004, My benzos increased over time and so did my drinking. I had previously lived in key west and in my mind I wanted to be there so I started listening to jimmy buffett , started drinking corona and escaped reality of the life in the midwest. Those days are gone now and I have gotten older but the drugs and the beer are still there.

[avisg]

I guess I am unclear about a few things I understand you wifes is aware you are spending alot of time on the site I think if you have her make a screen name it will help her understand why you are on here and that you want to get better for your self and it will also help your relationships in general .There are also many other family members on here that can help her .I am going to pm you some info on klonopin to your pm box.

[swagger39]

alrighty then , i really was not expecting an answer to that, have a wonderfull night-everyone and will return when I can get the chance.

[swagger39]

ok when did i disrespect you? if i did i dont recall and im sorry, have i said anything disrespectfull today since i came on about an hour ago or so? was it my jersey- guido-white casle remarks? gee i was just clownin. How many times have I implied I will go to AA? And I am anything but drinking now, why do you think im drinking? The anger yes- lastnight. I dont see it today. cursing , its just my way and is not directed to anyone just used in general conversation. also i observe others doing it as well, last night I forgive myself for as i had a major meltdown. can you forvive as well? and for what its worth im not gonna here that much anymore-no pc- only the college library and I cant be here all the time. Im gonna buy 5 more minutes just to hear a response to this. swag

[jayeye]

not a problem swag keep in touch bro.....keep coming on the site.

i need to find power in others to find power in myself....just like you.


dont forgot bro we are both in the same boat and its sinking fast

[IBKleen]

Swagger,

Not trying to rude...AM trying to help. It seems you drink, come on and post and you are angry. I have not heard you discuss wanting to get sober? Do you? There is great help here if you do.

Members here are trying to help you but you need to help us to do that. The anger, the cursing, etc. have got to go. We are respectful of each other and try to help when we can. All we ask...know what? I will speak for myself..ALL I ASK is that you be respectful back.

Remember the old saying "You catch more bees with honey?"

[swagger39]

I have like 5 min left here but yes I think I have a plan. From 4mg-drop 1/4 mg a month, then towards the end less than that, by then the blood levels should be low enough to tolerate wd for a short priod. thats concrete enough for me! thanks but dont reply cuz I have to get off this computer-soon. swag