I'm at my rock bottom. Please help!

[Friend999]

I'm asking all of you, my friends, to be part of my last desparate hope.  I call you my friends, even though I have not posted a lot, but I have seen yiour hearts, felt your pain, and cried with you over countless hours the last few months.  I'm crying now, as I write this, because I will have to leave a very wonderful friend to face the demons of the pills of false happiness alone. It is not my choice, because she has pushed me out of her life, but as many of you have warned me, addiction can ruin the lives of those near the addicted.  I'm still willing to have my heart pierced a few more times, but maybe it is for the best, for me.

Please find one more example of the compassion you have shown by writng an anonomous letter to my friend when answering this post.  She is 34, single, and has had "a problem with pain pills "all of her life" (problably roxycodone). To my knowledge she has kept this a secret from everyone. She is not at rock bottom, and I believe she is in and out of withdrawals as her money dictates. I cannot get her on this forum. I don't know her dosages.

Please write the letter to "A", from (your first name) (or nickname), where you are from, and what you would like to say to her. I know this is a long shot, and that she has to be ready, but when things get desperate, one must try anything.  

I sincerely thank you all from the bottom of my heart. My prayers will continue to include all of you, and her, and I wish you all the best as you try to get your life back.  

Sincerely,

Friend999

[Mikeinthesouth]

Please don't misunderstand what I am saying. I applaud your help and wish you all the success one can wish. I just want your friend to know they are not alone in their thoughts and feelings if at all like my own. This was not at you, but for your friend to read and know they are not alone. Sorry if it is a bit harsh sounding. Mike

[Friend999]

Thank you, Mike.

I am just trying.  I truly hope that you will be who you used to be.  Best wishes to you.

Friend999

[Mikeinthesouth]

There are no words to change the mind of one addicted and using at least for me there were none and I think I have heard quite a few. I felt the threats were empty or they were so mistaken of who I am or what I am doing and that this is none of anyones business of what I do as it don't affect them much at all. I was so wrong in my feelings and opinions. All anyone did I have finally gotten the strength to stand and fight this addiction head on to be clean because I have chosen to not what anyone threatened me with as a few have already followed through with threir threats and it is not that much of a deterent for me. I just want to be who I used to be. Take Care, Mike

[Friend999]

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.

To everyone else, please write a letter to "A".  Maybe, maybe, what YOU say just might be a trigger to push her in the right direction.

She is a WONDERFUL person, and you could save her life.  Please try!

Friend999

[Friend999]

Thank you, Jess, from the bottom of my heart.

Friend888

[sweetmomma_7]

I am a wife and Mother to 6 beautiful children. I too let pills take over my life. I kept telling myself that I had it undercontrol and that I didn't have a problem. Once I ran out of pills my sister saw me hit rock bottom. I was at the point of not caring about my children or my husband or anyone for that matter. The only thing that matterd in my life were those pills.

I lied to everyone especially to my husband. I was stealing money from him to buy my pills and then had to make up lies about where the money went. After 6 years of being an addict I finally opened my eyes and saw what I was doing to myslef and to everyone else.

Here is just a few things I have been through in the past 1 1/2 years because of my addiction. My Mother and Brother stopped talking to me and even called the cops on me to have my kids taken away ( luckily because my husband was there they didn't take my kids). We had 2 cars go through repossesion, our house just went through forecloseure, I lost all of my family and friends, I almost ended up in jail for prescription fraud, and noone knows this not even my husband but I even cheated on him to get pills. I really saw my life slipping away.

I finally decided that I have been through enough. I was tired of my kids seeing mommy cry all the time, and was tired of acting a way I never acted before. I pulled out an old photo album of me ( before my drug use) and saw how happy I really was without drugs. That was when I decided I wanted to be like that again.

I found this Forum 2 weeks ago and I was amazed at how wonderful these people are. Right now I have been clean for 2weeks and I will NEVER go back to those pills. It was my will powere to quit but most of all these great people on here.

You have a great friend who is worried about you. You also have all of us now who are worried for you too. If you don't post just keep reading until you get the power to write.

We are here for you!

Jess