Last day on opiates... Beginning detox Friday~ need encouragement & advise please!

[Luckygirl05]

Today was my last day on opiates... As of tomorrow, Friday- my detox begins... I am so scared... Need any positive works anyone may have please!

[Luckygirl05]

Well I wish I could say I was doing well today- but I'm not... My want to just crawl back into bed until this is over is really strong. I didn't end up being able to finish my cleaning job yesterday. I was there till almost 6 off and on and I finally looked around and knew that I couldn't get everything done that my client had asked of me. I did get most of the house done but I made a list and told her I would be back Monday or Tues. when I didn't have the kids with me. They were quite entertained and I knew it was just me with the problem but neverless I had to get back to my comfort zone which is my own house with my own surroundings. I do have a jacuzzi tub in my master bathroom that sounds quite soothing at the moment but my little guy always wants to get in with me and it takes away some of the appeal. I think I will plan on taking a bath after my husband gets home. He seems really upset lately and I wonder if he is doubting his choice to quit with me? I have to worry more about myself and my recovery than him and his moods. It is hard having 2 people in the house trying to detox. I know he feels like since he gets up and works all day that I should be able to get alot of stuff done around the house but I have a mental block that will only allow me to do so much... I know I need to work around that but it is hard to do since my physical symptoms are peaking. I am shaky, irriatable and my skin is crawling still. I want to jump out of my own body and transform into someone who has never done this to their body. I know that is unrealistic but I can dream! I am praying for strength... Usually when I start to feel like this I begin calling everyone I know to scope out potential meds. I can't do that this time and it makes me so angry at myself for letting this get so out of control... I am going to stand firm on my decision and wait this one out, If it means that I have to be on my computer once an hour then so be it! I feel like the devil has a grip on me and I am going through a holy war inside. I know good prevails evil as long as I can stick to the plan. Today is day 3.I would be lying if I said I didn't want something to lesson my pain but I expected that this wouldn't be easy and alas, it is not... I hope all of you stick to the plan too and we can alll be better people for it:) Hang in there, I am right there beside you! Bless all of you for taking control back over your lives! One day at a time:) Christina

[mellie4]

Good for you for working so hard at this!  I'm amazed when I read about people going through withdrawals that actually function!  You must be really proud of yourself right now.

[jstntime]

Way to go Christina!!!

I'm so happy to hear you (both) are sticking this out.  You are wise to keep moving, yes get out of the house!!!  Having some fun with the kids will be a great reminder of one of the reasons you are doing this.

You have made a wise and courageous decision to change your circumstances and it's going to get easier soon.  

Hang in there and keep us posted on how you guys are doing.  One minute, hour, day at a time and soon you will feel better.  Short term pain for long term gain.  There is only one way to get the membership card for this club Christina and we are all thrilled you have decided to join!!!!!

Pulling for you guys!!!!

bob

[Luckygirl05]

Thanks guys, much appreciated and needed right now. My job went ok... Not great though. I didn't end up getting everything accomplished that I set out to do but it was a great distraction. I pushed my body and occupied my mind so I guess I accomplished my goal for today. Through the weekend I have both boys and I will have to figure out some plans to get us out of the house. I'm contimplating doing some garage saling in the am. I think that is something I always enjoy and my kids do too so as of now it is a plan:) I will write more later, trying to eat and have some family time for now. Have a great night to all of you! Thanks again for all supporting each other. I feel like this is my new, more understanding family! My husband is doing great too, thank goodness! My prayers are paying off! I feel blessed for each day we make it through without abusing pills... Good night, Christina

[gnarly_1]

HI glad to see you made it thew the first night....it ausum your getting out and working this will help take your mind off how you feel....hang in there you can do this it just going to take some perseverance....remember this is all  about attitude and yours rocks right now
keep it up...I will look for your post later on to see how your doing good luck and God bless ....Gnarly

[ready2enjoylife]

Sounds like your doing well, although things tend to really hit you at about the 3rd day or so. But yes keep moving!! Push through that pain, and the more you do the more tired you may become and that will make it easier to sleep at night. Me being a stay at home mom, limited many things I could do. I use to feel the same way about opiates, I could clean, cook, care for my kids do it all, but that QUICKLY faded, and as time went on I became tired, fatigued, and lethargic. I have more energy now without them. Although I tend to get pretty tired early, I am more motivated on getting things done.

You have the right frame of mind, to take this on. And I will be rooting for you all the way!! Let us all know how things went today at your job!