The mental part will come so be aware..don't let it slap you in the face. You are staying strong!! Keep posting...and take the advice about calling your friend to tell her you have quit. Keep on puttting one step in front of the other and you will get there!!!
Lisa, Just wanted to say congrats and wish you luck. Keep up the good work. I don't know if anyone in the posts above suggested it, but you need to call your sweet lady dealer(lol), and tell her thanks, but no thanks any more. Call her before she calls you.
Stay strong!!
Well, good for you on being clean & living addict free! :D
I hear you on the pain meds. I have severe teeth problems [in the back of my mouth only] and I am TERRIFIED the pain will come back because we know how well OTC meds work for tooth pain :/
On a brighter note;
Day 3 *****. Still don't have any energy, and my legs are very tore/tender. BUT I have gotten 4 phone calls from vic suppliers and have let my voicemail pick up each time. The physical pain is unbearable at times.. but emotionally, I'm well. I thought that would be the hardest part. The only time I felt tempted was when I went to another vicodin addiction site and noticed on the right hand side- pictures of alllll the different types of vicodins available. The yellow ones. The blue ones. etc. Why would they do that? lol Well, I clicked THAT page away and haven't wanted one since. :)
Mind over matter. But GOD it isn't easy.
I just wanted to mention, the reason I relapsed so many times (one reasone) is that I hurt my back. In the future, if you need pain medicine for a valid reason be really careful. I know that will be a weakness for me in the future if I do need pain medicine.
Hey Lisa. To answer your question, I am now on suboxone. Whether I am "clean" or not is up to debate. I feel I am clean and living a addict free life. Unfortunatly, I kept relapsing so I decided to go on suboxone. A year ago I became so depressed that I wanted to end my life. After three days on life support, the docs brought me back. So you can say suboxone literally save my life. You do not have to take the road I did. Please get aftercare. Anything even if its posting on this forum. Post often, NA, AA, there is help out there. You can do this CT. Stay strong!
Lisa
Hey Lisa :) . Just wondering.. are you still clean?
Good to know I should feel better by day 6. My plans for today is to just try to find it in me to get moving. The hardest part is this internal conflict that is convincing me I NEED it, but I know I don't. Telling myself I don't really helps with the emotional w/d. Makes sense to get busy. Thanks for your reply <3