Rock bottom

[LisaM530]

I guess this is where I begin. I don't know how else to do this. Several years ago, I was prescribed vicodin for a toothache. Then another script for another toothache- you get the idea. Eventually I became dependant on them to just get out of bed and make it through the day. Here I am about 5-6 years later, and still taking them. I take what I can get which can on some days be up to 8- (yellow) 1,000's, but on average- about 7- 750's a day. I am way too ashamed to talk about it, and I CANT go to a doctor and just explain this, as I have way too much riding on anyone 'finding out'. The reason I am here today started out simple enough. I simply didn't have any and started (am) experiencing withdrawls. I started reading around online looking for anything related to overcoming  vicodin withrawl, and that's how I found this site. Yesterday, I had NO desire to quit. After reading around, and feeling what I am feeling now, I think I'm ready. This is the first time in all these years I have ever even entertained the thought of quitting. Im maybe even a little enthusiastic- but I'm terrified. Taking vicodin has been the only thing I have known for so long, I don't know if I can do it.
Is there anything I can do to subside the withdrawl symptoms that doesnt involve doctors or 'outing' myself? I want to be normal again. Thank you in advance <3

[SandySlope]

It will get worse, but keep looking for the light at the end of the tunnel, because it is BRIGHT and it FEELS GOOD!!! Give yourself a break......you gotta get over the next 2 days. Occupy yourself with movies and liquids

[LisaM530]

I have a lady friend who gets them and I just adore her. She's an older lady with the kindest heart in the world. I LOVE being around her but I do associate her with the vic's. She always has them. She's supposed to be calling me back today. I might let my voicemail get it. I've been reading into the Thomas Recipe. I think that's my best bet- because the idea of tapering makes no sense to me. No offense to anyone who's gone that route, I just know for ME, and the extent of my addiction- my best option is cold turkey. It's going on 7 hours and I'm not doing too bad actually. Considering I haven't had any since I woke up today. Is this the easy part? Is it going to get much worse?

[worried878]

yep..gotta cut off supply..or they will sing to u during the nite..those pills will..

also seems everyone has a different bottom//mine was not as low as others..but it was enuf for me..we r all different

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

You may need to burn that connection that you have left.  Tell them the truth - you no longer need any of their product.  If its a Doc (I dont think so - )  tell them.  If you cant or wont do any of the above......... have them front you some and stiff them - - Remember...this IS 5 or 6 years into this.  If you dont do it now you may well end up on this forum when you are 60!!  And best of luck to you ......it can be done.  

[LisaM530]

First, thanks you guys for replying so fast. You have no idea how much your words (and other stories) on my computer screen are coaching me right now. Wish I would have found this place sooner. I will check into the thomas recipe & your other suggestions Al. Thank you.
Worried: As much as I feel like I want it NOW, im scared I wont later. If I get a call. I dont think I'm strong enough to turn it down. And I will get a call. Not giving into the temptation is going to be hardest for me than the withdrawal. BTW: It's not even half of day one for me. Congrats on your recovery :)

[worried878]

alice gave great advice..and ur dose is not too bad at all..less than mine when i quit...and i felt flu-like for 4 days and back to work day 5..really day 4 i coulda worked...u gotta really want this...and cravings may come back so support is needed to stay clean..getting clean is the easy part of all of this..staying clean is work...do u feel over it?  I was so sick and tired of being sick and tired..i was really almost excited bout quitting..not that u need to b excited bout it..but u gotta want it..deep down..keep posting