Rock bottom

[LisaM530]

I guess this is where I begin. I don't know how else to do this. Several years ago, I was prescribed vicodin for a toothache. Then another script for another toothache- you get the idea. Eventually I became dependant on them to just get out of bed and make it through the day. Here I am about 5-6 years later, and still taking them. I take what I can get which can on some days be up to 8- (yellow) 1,000's, but on average- about 7- 750's a day. I am way too ashamed to talk about it, and I CANT go to a doctor and just explain this, as I have way too much riding on anyone 'finding out'. The reason I am here today started out simple enough. I simply didn't have any and started (am) experiencing withdrawls. I started reading around online looking for anything related to overcoming  vicodin withrawl, and that's how I found this site. Yesterday, I had NO desire to quit. After reading around, and feeling what I am feeling now, I think I'm ready. This is the first time in all these years I have ever even entertained the thought of quitting. Im maybe even a little enthusiastic- but I'm terrified. Taking vicodin has been the only thing I have known for so long, I don't know if I can do it.
Is there anything I can do to subside the withdrawl symptoms that doesnt involve doctors or 'outing' myself? I want to be normal again. Thank you in advance <3

[Allicat0117]

Welcome to the forum. Check out the Thomas Recipe and Amino Acids protocol on the bottom right of this page. This will help with the w/d. Get lots of immodium and take alot of hot baths to help with the muscle aches. Prepare to be sick for about a week. The physical w/d will last 5-7 days. I know you do not want anyone to find out but it is sooooo much easier if you can tell atleast one person (maybe a family member). It is important that you have support around you. You can pull it off as the flu but it is nice to have someone to talk to. It is also important to develop a plan to stay clean. After the w/d subside you will find that the mental part and staying clean is the hardest. You can do this...keep a positive attitude and stay strong!!! One last thing, when you find it impossible to get out of bed just to go to the bathroom,  dig deep and take a short walk. excersice will help tremendoulsy!!! IT will get your endorphins going which will make you feel better. Good luck to you and post often!

Alli