What is my problem??? UGH!!!!

[confused456]

What the heck is wrong with me? OK, don't answer that...LOL
Seriously, as most of you know, my Grandma recently passed away, and that in itself is devastating to me since she helped raise me. I just can not seem to get past these darn mood swings. One minute I am GREAT, the next, I feel literally like I have no reason for living....I am really sick of this.
Of course, these feelings bring on MAJOR cravings. It really is getting to me. I can take something someone says really bad and get depressed, and 5 minutes later, re-think it and realize that I am probably taking things the wrong way. UGH!! I guess I would like any advice or maybe I just finally needed to vent. Sorry all. Just need to scream or break something or anything!!!

[cathy5841]

Hun, why havent you talked to me about this. i know you are coming up on 3 months right??well is the big scope of things that not alot of time. okay babe dont kill me..i know to you it seems a life time.   go back and read my jopurnal entry about time..it will help you keep things in perspective.  now for the a$$ kickin for not talking to me.  kick.  kick. kick.  i love ya and tell me stuff from now on.
cathy

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

Are you in any kind of counseling? Like Jacqui says you are going through the PAWS and then dealing with the death of a dear loved one. Its a lot for anyone to have to go through. I know what a horrible feeling it is, depression is awful and it puts you in such a dark place. Grief is hard, I have lost both of my parents and I know the hole it leaves in your heart. You know that you have reasons to live. I know you are very sad and depressed but your grandmother would not want you to think like that she loved you and wants the best life for you.
Are you keeping busy? What are you doing with your time. Get busy and find some joy in things you like to do.

Hugs,

Chi Chi

[Marce4]

I hear ya! I have been on an emotional rollercoaster for the last year.  I attribute part of this to my addiction and recovery, and part of this to being perimenopausal.....I don't know how old you are but this combination seems to be lethal!!!LOL Seriously, we have screwed with our minds and now they are trying to repair themselves. It takes time but I think it is well worth the effort to get our lives back.  Be patient with yourself and the cravings do pass....try to occupy yourself with something you enjoy to take your mind of the cravings, I have been there and still feel the same way you do.  Stay strong!
Marcie

[Jacqui805]

That's a loaded question...what's wrong with you?  ; )    Seriously son, it's PAWS...know it well myself, the ups are big, the downs are big as well.  I'm telling you girl, there are days I think I've gone completely nuts 'cause I'm the same way....This down you're in, will most likely pass, and if it doesn't, you gotta do something about it.  Or I will!  I swear if things were not tight right now, I'd be at your door tomorrow.  Until that day, I'll be here for you.