Will it ever end?????

[tobie]

My name is Tobie,I posted a few weeks ago andgot some great support expecially from Oxic,I wrote beacause I am desperate to get off hydrocodone,oxycodone (whatever I can getmy hands on)I detoxed last week for the third time and stayed clean for 4 days.3 days ago I relapsed horribly for the third time.I went on a damn pill searchimg rampage.Now I am so discouraged.Will this ever end?Will I ever be "normal" agian?I can't do anything without planning around lortabs.I am sooooo sick and tired of being a slave to these demons,and what in the hell am I even addicted to?I could eat 6 10's and would'nt get even the slightest buzz.I feel like such a loser.I am 22 in college and

[babyboomer]

Hey, Just thought I was looking at my story,when I read your comment!!Muy whole life centers around whether or not my pills will be in sync with the holidays,birthdays,vacations,and it is NOT any way to live. But until I can get well-it's off to the doctors office.(con city!)I have ruined many important events bscause of withdrawl.Anyway, just wanted you to know you are in my prayers. And I do understand.

[vettezr1]

Is using not abusing acceptable.
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[Jerri2]

Glad to hear your doing soooooooooooo good!I'm at day 22 and I dont exercise enough!I need to take my own and everybody elses advice on this I guess!Take care my friend!!   Jerri

[finkboy]

The icepick in my head drove me straight to the Dr who gave me 10 Percs, which my wife has in her possesion.  The last time I used was March 28th.

I took 2 and the icepick went away, only to be replaced with feelings of guilt, shame and disbelief.  I just wanted the pain to stop, and not to catch a buzz.

I tried Fiorcet (yuk!), Torridal shots and Maltrex.  All just reduced my icepick to a dull roar, allowing me to be semi-functional.

Is it phsycological?  Can I go to an NA meeting?  Is using not abusing acceptable?

Thoughts anyone?

[Chezz2]

Vico,

Exercise, the Thomas Recipe, perseverance, commitment, support, desire, this web site -- all contributed

I don't think success could have been expressed any better.

Congrats, your out of the woods, and ready to cross the prairie...

Chezz

[VicoWithdrawing]

Hi Jerri,

Day 5 and all is terrific!!

I felt perfectly normal all day - was even able to put in a productive 8 hour day at the office.  I took a 1 hour bike ride after work.

To use a blast from the past --

Just keep on truckin'!

All is well.

Exercise, the Thomas Recipe, perseverance, commitment, support, desire, this web site -- all contributed.

Thanks for your concern.

VicoW/D