day 5 clean and I just got 20 vicodin...help please

[done4good]

I have been thru withdrawal hell this week and in a weak moment I called my pharm to ask for a refill yesterday. I didn't think my dr would ok it since it'd only been a week since I got 20 from him.
Well, right after an NA meeting tonight I got the msg that my prescription was ready. I am still feeling sick and wanted the relief the stupid pills would bring.
Anyway, I took 2. I want to throw the rest in the toilet but am worried I'll be going thru withdrawals all over again. Will 2 pills make me start all over again???
I'm really scared...I can't go thru another week like this.
....wanting to be DONE4good, but apparently not strong enough

[worried878]

k....did u flush those 3?   read a sad post and then go flush them...what is a good post for her to read to get the will power to go flush?   any ideas?   that is waht happened to me...i read this sad post about a girl who had given up after relapsing so many times and i started crying and flushed

[worried878]

ditch the taper idea...I dont think many knew u had been clean for a week before this....ditch them...flush them....if you push it u will end up having to taper or WD

[done4good]

I still have 13 to go. If I keep 3 of them "just in case" is that just the addict talking?
I mean...like if I wake up tomorrow feeling totally horrible..then I could use the 3 to taper.
I'm so afraid of withdrawal now.
I hate addiction.

[kimmieb]

YOU won, the pills didn't.....ha! :-)

[worried878]

go for it...yes i flushed them and no i did not have physical WDs...mentally i felt a bit of a setback...u will feel so good because u just did one of the hardest things an addict can do....you will win

[done4good]

thank you kimmie, cathy and worried...you all have no idea how much this helps. I don't think I could have dumped even one if I hadn't logged on here.