PLEASE HELP SOMEONE

[needhelp33319]

I have always like taking vicodin I guess for "recreation".  However, when my son passed away in 2007, I started taking them on a daily basis.  For the past two weeks I have been out and been taking percocet because that's all I have right now.  I have decided to stop taking pain pills and try to get my life  back.  When I take the percs,  I also have to take something for headache, and it's just a terrible cycle.  I got up this morning thinking I was going to go all day without a pill and it's now about 11:30 a.m.  I have just taken one because I literally felt like I was dying.  I am wondering is it safe to feel that way?  I mean do you have to ween off or can you just stop cold turkey?  I am sweating and freezing, my stomach hurts, I'm aching all over, and I can't even get the energy to get up to take a shower.  My heart is beating out of my chest.   I know that I haven't quit before now because without the pills I just don't have energy.  I don't want to do anything without them, and I'm also wondering if that will go away?  I do not have the money to go to doc for anything to help, and I do have a few percs if I have to take them.  So please anyone with any help would be so appreciated.

[needhelp33319]

i don't have any tools to check that with is there any other way?  At times I feel like it will beat out of my chest

[candothis247]

my only concern is your heart beating so fast, can you get a heart rate # and a blood pressure?

[needhelp33319]

Thank you so much... I would say with these vics about 6 or so 10 mgs a day...Since I've had the percs the 500mgs about 5 a day just because they give me such a bad reaction.... So with that dose how long would you estimate the wds to last?  I really do feel like I'm dying and I'm also wondering if and when I get through the withdrawls, will I feel my old self again?  I mean will I actually be back to "normal" before the pills because sometimes that seems impossible...My son was three months old, my first night leaving him, his father fell asleep with him on his chest in recliner and my son slid down on his side and suffocated...His death was the death of me as well...thank you so much and if you don't mind posting again I would greatly appreciate it.

[worried878]

what is ur current daily dose?  approximately?? like 10 10 mg pills, 5 pills or what..i know it is probably not the same everyday but an average daily dose would help???  I am sorry about ur son..how old was he?  things like this can throw us into a tail spin with things like pills or alcohol when we r prone...it is great and strong of u to be able to lift ur chin up and move forward now....one thing is ct will not kill u...unles u are in extremely fragile condition//say a bad heart condition and on a very high dose..ct off narcotics is not dangerous...but if u r gonna go ct then u gotta get rid of the pills u have...and u must not be as u just caved and took one...u r not a mountain of strength..no addict is...how on earth can an addict not take a pill when one is right there in their possession?

another way is tapering down..takes discipline..lots of it...usually needs a significant or caring other to dole out the pills//cos most of will cheat doing a taper....either way...wds are no fun..but u wont die...it just feels yucky...u gotta get some imdodium, sumpin for sleep etc..have u read the thomas recipe?  educate urself on what to expect and it wont be so hard..again i do not know ur dose..if it were 60-80 mgs a day..ct would be the way i would go..expecially if it has only been a few yrs...even 100 mgs can be ct-ed...i was at 100 mgs of hydro and ct..cos i suk at tapering..it made me feel like a big fat addict...cos i am  (: ):

good luck and keep posting...people here will help u with a plan//they r great and u were lucky to stumble upon us!