Equivocal HSV1 result after 4 months 20 days but all the typical symptoms

Hi,

I received unprotected oral sex from a girl at a bar and it was the most stupid thing I have done in my entire life. I believe I lost my spirit to live because of this.I have severe symptoms of burning in my genitals and small red rash on the head of my penis.  I also got these small pimple ( really small, the size of a Hair follicle) on my lip ( it doesnt hurt at all, but hurts when touched or when I squeezed it it had a small watery substance ). These symptoms came after 3 months post exposure and have occourred two times in one month. I had 5 tests since then and it is almost 5 months now. The results were negative for HSV2 all the time but for HSV1 it has been like 0.89( 2 months) ,0,78 (2 months 10 days),1.4 ( 3 months),0.73 (3 months 20 days) and 1.0 ( 4 moths and 20 days since exposure). These are all Herpselect IGG only tests done by Quest. I know I have herpes on my genitals because I never felt this kind of burning and it messes me up more because it took so long for symptoms to show up. I also have burning on the corner of my lip and my whole thigh has this feeling of rug burn or as if a sand paper was rubbed on my thighs. I have given my blood for immunoblot HSV testing now and also waiting for my PCR swab results of my urethra to come along. I am so sad that I might be having oral and genital Herpes. Please tell me if this is herpes or anything else ? I had to make out with new girlfriend and I didnt know I had it or not for sure for over 4 months and I am now scared if I infected her also :( I am now in so much depression that I might have infected her as I didnt know if I had it  or not but since my symptoms came out so late I couldnt help it. :(