Thank you all for your very thougthful and empathic words. I was not really prepared for what I faced yesterday as I was very confident of getting on the study, but just fell at the last post. I am allowing myself to feel and understand what this loss means to me at the moment and as I said in my journal..it is the loss of the amazing medical support I have been receiving that hits hardest at present, and the opportunity to take a drug that just may make a difference to my future.
So after an Ok night's sleep I feel better and am resolved to try and be patient and I want to try again for this trial. My Consultant thinks it is the best way forward for me, although it is my choice and I now just have to wait and hope that things fall into place.
It feels a bit like I have slipped back into limboland and a sharp reminder of what this uncertainty and frustration feels like...so hugs to you all and many thanks.
Oh Sarah, I am so sorry like everyone else here. I thought for sure you'd get in, but didn't realize how stringent the rules are. I should though as I'm in a study.
It's ok to be sad for awhile. Thenm do what you need to do to get the skin problem taken care of and be as symptom-free as possible then give it another go.
Love and hugs,
Julie
Sarah,
I am so sorry that you are temporarily out of the trial! It's awful to have your expectations dashed when you are really counting on something.
I read your journal and on paper you seem to have processed it well but I know in your heart you are still disappointed. I'm sure you will bounce back and I will send good thoughts your way that the dermatology appointment turns out well.
Hugs,
Ren
Sorry this hasn't worked out for you. I know how it feels when you build yourself up for something then it all falls apart.
Thinking of you.
we all could sense how much you were anticipating being a part of this important work. I'm so sorry it didn't work out for you right now, but please remember that your health comes first.
These researchers cannot take subjects who have other complications or whose personal situation can compromise the results of the study. These trials have to be extremely rigid in their criteria, as I know you already understand.
Again, thanks for wanting to do this study. Perhaps in a month your situation will change but in the meantime, keep your head up!
hugs, Lulu
I'm so sorry to hear of this disappointing news. I was following what you had been doing and writing and it was obvious that you were aproaching this in a very posisive/hopeful manner. Sarah, hopefully you will get through these roadblocks and eventually begin the trial.
I know you are familiar with the grieving process and will get through it. Although it is all to easy to say, you are not grieving alone. Disappointment hits all hard.
Frank
Thoughts and prayers are with you.