PLEASE HELP I RELAPSED

[leeisgettingclean]

I was on day 3 of quiting a 15-20 loratab 10 prob daily. Ijust quit, no taper or anything. The wierd part is that about mid day on day three i i was feeling fine and just for fun screwed up and took 2 tens. I instintly relized i messed up and flused 84 more of them down the tolet...my ? is....being that i did take those 2 today well tomorrow be like day one phsically. I mean i know my sobrity starts at day one tomorrow but will the w/d's

[birdie373]

I don't know if you are talking about me or not.  I am not here to prey on people, I am here to tell him what I went through and to see if it helps.  Also, I learned that educating yourself is a main factor in trying to stay sober.  Sorry you misunderstood my message.

[tylersblueeyedmama]

Congratulations on taking your life back :)  I wish you the best of luck and please keep us posted :)

K

[SmithsGirl89]

Thatseems funn y that someone might come here to prey on people trying to kick really difficult habbits. I mean are you trying to get a here?

[leeisgettingclean]

glad to know i helped someone, thats what its all about ...one helping anouther. i dont feel that i started back at day one. I actually am having a good day and God be with me I dont feel any w/d's yet and believe me I usually feel them while i lay in bed wishing i could fall asleep but today i feel diff...i feel good. God is gona help us all throw this. and if God aint your thing , thats cool just know you can not do this alone <3

[birdie373]

this helped me to stay away from percs.  I reminded myself not to take that one pill again because I don't want to start back @ square one again and I tell myself that I wouldn't abuse a child so why abuse the child within me.  This has helped me to stay away from taking those meds.  Also, I realized I took the pills to help keep my emotional pain down and now that I stopped the pills my pain is not to bad.  I know I was causing more pain to myself and not facing reality face to face.  I use to have anxiety before, put I educated myself, and I learned that anxiety is caused by fear.  Once I realized this, I really looked within myself and realized what I was fearing and the anxiety subsided.  Also, I learned that I would not die having panic attacks. Educating yourself about substance abuse is the key factor in staying sober.  After awhile of being sober you will have new feelings that you never felt before.  This is called " high on life". I hope you the best and let that inner child be drug/alcohol free.  

[peaceinknowing]

I messaged you, but didn't hear anything back...

[peaceinknowing]

Do you have AOL Instant Messenger or Yahoo! Messenger?

If so, shoot me a message over via messaging here and we can chat one on one there. I'm a HUGE night owl [and of course this was worse when going through detox here at home by myself, basically] so I'll be online all night and into the wee little teeny hours of the night -- HEHEHEHE -- but yeah definately let me know ASAP and we can go from there, if you'd like.

[umustbdreaming]

Yes stick together and stay here! Trust me when i say this.... We all know how you feel and how sick you are.  We're all here for the same thing and thats to get thru the hardest thing in our lives.  It does and will get better just stay on the right path and i promise you we're all here for you anytime any day.


                        

[leeisgettingclean]

you all have really really helped me more then you all might know....i feel that i can go in there and sleep now and look forward to talkin to you all tomorrow
we all really are in this together and how great is it to know that others really understand :  )

[umustbdreaming]

yeah the energy and motivation is different for everyone. Mine is very low right now , i think while in recovery and gettting better it unfortunetly will take atleast a few weeks to get full energy back but each day you wake up the more and more you will feel like your old self and have more energy

[leeisgettingclean]

omg....thank you for giving me hope i was and still am praying that by day 6 or 7 I will have some energy and get at least a .5 night sleep. Hey thanks for takin time to listen to me blah blah and blah <3

[leeisgettingclean]

yeah with help from God and losing old "friends" i am gona come out on top. I am only 25 and have big plans ...i will not let these fu**ing pills ruin my life, and i promise myself that : )

[peaceinknowing]

Everyone's different when it comes to when they're going to feel better when going through the WD from coming off opiates. I know that even though I had no assistance from my PCP [OR] any other medications, I was able to feel better and get me energy back within 6-7 days. I am STILL on the emotional rollercoaster, but this is something that we are all going to have to deal with. This might not be the case for some people though, and it may take longer -- or so I have heard in reading other posts here on the forums!  <3

[umustbdreaming]

flushing mine was the hardest thing ive done in the last two years, but really worth it!  I know right now it sounds like the stupidest thing youve done because taking them would stop the sickness.  Trust me the sickness will go away and you will get your life back which is way more important than pills.... Just remember Lee sometimes its one day at a time, sometimes its one HOUR at a time. Main thing is to stay busy and stay here and keep us up to date. We've all slipped im sure im guilty myself and only on day 5, but i stay here and post and it seems to help pass the time!  You can do it

[leeisgettingclean]

so when does the energy and happiness start to return?

[peaceinknowing]

No offense taken, trust me my newfound friend!  <3

I know what it was like to flush my second love [the first love being my hubbywubby lovah, of course] down the toilet. It was the hardest thing I had to do THAT day. Now the hardest part for me is staying clean from the pills. Today makes 21 or 22 days clean for me.

[leeisgettingclean]

yeah flusing my lover down the sewer was hard but worth it <3

[leeisgettingclean]

sorry GIRL , i am sure you have all the prove you need <3.....hope not to offend you sweetie

[greeneyes16]

My son also graduated from college & is in the Medical field ..He also is addicted to pain meds ..Opiates ..He tried to quit 2 time on his own but it was to hard . He went into a detox program & hopefully going into rehab ...They educate you & help you when you can to it alone ..My son is also 25 ...Put yourself in a detox program & get the proper help ...Hang in there sweetie ...you can fight this ........Good luck & stay strong

[peaceinknowing]

FYI -- I'm a girl.. hehehehe  <3 Got the boobies to prove it and all, promise!  <3

[umustbdreaming]

No it shouldnt be as bad as day 1.  Most of the slip ups dont usually put you back at day 1.... but you will continue to wd most def with 3 days under your belt. Hopefully itll be like it never happened.... i did the same thing my first 5 detox's i kept slipping but only with a few non regular doses that my body was used to.... Mine never went back to day 1 but remember all are different and it sounds like youre doing good especially flushing the rest that is the BIGGEST thing you couldve done to help you out.  I know that has to be the hardest thing to do mentally.. GOOD LUCK and take care

[leeisgettingclean]

and no i have no medical help, but i have been takin a couple benzods for sleeping

[leeisgettingclean]

15-20 loratab 10 for about 2.5 years starting at age 23....i tried quiting few times first /d happened within 12 hours after last pills, first full day of no pills were unbareable and thas when  i always got more....but this time it was digg , i was on day 3 and not even feeling bad except some lack of energy and maybe a little ill. I just want some amount of energy back before my 12 hour shift at work saturday. I did go in and worked a 12 hour shift on sun , and that was day one and i made it. but after this relaspe i am scared to death that i am gona wake up in the morning in full blown w/d

[Kevin_Bacon]

Well, that depends on a load of things: How much for how long, age, first w/d?, medical help, pretty well all the details there ... So, what's up, Doc?